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Chapter 1

Harshika pov,

Dampness in the ground clearly shows that it rained heavily throughout last night. My body shivered as a result of the cold caused by rain and an early morning snow flurry. Regardless of coldness, I went and sat on the bench in the garden as my glance fixed on his room window. Even though the cold made me frozen, the smile on my face and love in my eyes did not diminish even a little bit. Love is an indefinable feeling. Even waiting to spot a shadow of our loved one's is a unique feeling. That's how every moment I wait for him now, gives me unlimited delight.

At the instant he opened his window and looked at me with a sleepy smile, I got up from the bench and smiled brightly. While looking in my direction, he called someone on his phone and waved his hand towards my direction. I mumbled his name happily and waved back. There is no limit to the happiness that I feel in my heart when I pronounce his name "Naresh". He allured my heart to love him since the day I came to stay at my uncle's house. Although I know that he loves me too from his actions, I still did not have the courage to confess my love to him. I'm waiting for him to take the first step to conquer our love. My thoughts paused by my mama (uncle) voice,

" Harshika.. When are you going to stop this ?. Go home before anyone sees you. And you may catch a cold if you stay outside longer in this cold weather. "

I turned and looked at mama who was standing with a torch light in his hand. My mama is working as a security guard in this mansion. I had no idea what would have happened to me if mama (uncle) had not brought me with him after my parents demise. Moreover, I would not have met naresh if mama had not brought me with him to this mansion. Mama did not only bring me with him, but he also showed his generosity by rearing me as his own daughter.

Rather than claiming he is raising me as if I were his own daughter, I can confidently state that he loves me more than his own children. Mama had the responsibility of marrying off his five sisters therefore he got married late. He has two children, his daughter Meera is 14 years old and his son Aarav is 7 years old. Mami (Aunty) died two years ago due to poor health. My uncle attempted everything he could to obtain me a medical seat so that I might become a doctor like my parents wanted, but his financial situation prevented him from doing so. 

Moreover, I also decided to fulfill my desire to get close to naresh without giving importance to my parents' desire. I studied BHM not only because of mama compulsion, but also I believed that it would create an opportunity for me to get closer to Naresh. After completing my education, I began working as a chef at his mansion with the assistance of Mama as per my wish. My thoughts are breaked away by sharp blooming voice,

" Ramu. What's happening here ?."

My whole body numbed for a second at the moment I heard that voice. My body began to sweat as if I was standing in a fire. I hide my trembling hands behind my back so that it would not be seen by him. I don't know why I'm trembling in fear just after listening to his voice. I just wish to facepalm myself for scaring even at the sight of my future brother-in-law. He is the elder brother of naresh. He always carried out a powerful and dominating aura around him. Even Though his parents named him as Raghavan, no one dared to call him by his name. He does not scold or dominate anyone but his one hard glance is enough to make everyone tremble in fear.

He tasted victory in the business world in a short time due to his powerful personality. Their firm suffered a setback owing to his grandfather's death, but he overcame the setbacks with his strong leadership and personality, leading their company to victory. I heard a lot of rumors about him from coworkers in the kitchen.

He despises his parents, but he adores his brother and grandmother.

He will do anything for his brother.

His lover abandoned him due to his parents' threat.

He is not ready to get married even at the age of 30 due to the reason that he is still in love with his ex-lover.

He will not think for a second to destroy anyone who thought to destroy him or his loved ones.

My thoughts were cut away by mama submissive voice,

" Nothing sir. Do you need anything sir ??."

He slightly nodded as no with tightened face and asked mama in hard tone while pointing out his finger towards me,

" Who is she ??. What is she doing here ??."

Mama smiled nervously and tried to give him excuses regarding my presence in garden in the early morning,

" Sir.. She is my niece and she came to the garden to see me."

While listening to my mama, his stare fixed at me. I stood there staring back at him without expressing my fear that had arisen in me. He slightly nodded as okay in the way to reply to mama and stride away from us. After he walked away from us, mama held my hand and dragged me towards our quarter as he shouted,

" How many times have I warned you not to come to the garden to see naresh sir ?. Harshika, try to understand. Your wish will never be fulfilled. Your desire and dream is something beyond our limit. Please don't let your obsession destroy your life completely."

Regardless of mama's furious words, I kept looking at naresh room with a smile. Getting advice from Mama isn't something new for me. At first I tried to explain to mama about my love, but he was adamant in his belief that my love would be unrequited. I stopped telling him about my love at one point.

After entering home, I made mama sit in the chair and went to the kitchen to get coffee for him. I poured the coffee from the flask into the coffee cup. Before heading to the garden to see Naresh, I made coffee and preserved it in the flask. I took the coffee cup in my hand and returned to the hall to give it to Mama. He kept advising me while drinking coffee. I was quietly listening to everything he had to say without arguing back anything.

Mama went back to work after warning me once again to forget my love. I just smiled seeing his over-protectiveness towards me. Like everyday, I begin to prepare breakfast and lunch. I packed lunch for Meera and Aarav after cooking and placed it on the dining table with breakfast. As a result of working as a cook at his home, I have to go to his mansion quite early in the morning, around 6:00 a.m. Due to it, I'll prepare the food for my cousins and mama in the morning itself and store it in the hotbox. I left the home and headed for his mansion after waking up Meera and reminded her to look after Aarav and make sure they ate their meals on time.

Chapter 2

Harshika pov,

Despite the fact that I became a chef in order to enter his mansion, I enjoy cooking. I feel pure happiness and enjoyment when I see others ravishing the food which I cook. My thoughts are paused by stella voice who is working as a server in the mansion,

" Harshika.. Saratha madam is calling you."

I turned and looked at her with worried expression and asked her in nervous tone,

" Why ??. What happened ??. Did they complain about the breakfast I cooked ?."

" No harshika. I do not feel like they called you to blame your cooking." She told me in an assuring tone.

I nodded with a smile and began to walk towards the dining hall. Their dining hall would be the size of our quarters. Even their dining hall screaming their richness. Each and every thing in their dining hall would cost several lakhs. The instant I stepped into the dining hall, I saw grandma who was sitting at the head of the dining table. Noticing my presence, grandma looked at me with a smile. I smiled back cheekily and raised my hand to wave but I controlled my excitement and dropped my hand down quickly with the remembrance of others. Grandma treats me very kindly and affectionately unlike the others in the house. Everyday after work, I would spend time with grandma to gossip about everyone. My glance moved to sarada madam who is naresh mother when she introduced to me a middle aged woman,

"Reka.. She is the one who cooked breakfast. Her name is harshika. She is our chef."

I smiled politely as a way to agree with sarada madam's words. The middle aged woman reka smiled while looking at me and appreciated my cook,

"Harshika.. The breakfast was outstanding. After a long time, I had a fantastic and satisfying breakfast."

I smiled and thanked her and waited for their order to go to the kitchen. Reka and sarada madam begin to discuss something silently between them. As they were immersed in their discussion, I quickly glanced around the dinning hall to spot naresh but my bad luck naresh was not there. Grandma, reka and sarada madam are only present in the dining hall. Where is Naresh ??. My searching and thoughts were interrupted by sarada madam announcement,

"Harshika.. Reka wants you to organize food preparation for naresh and tashvi marriage. You can do it right ??."

Before I could relieve myself from the shock which is caused due to saratha madam words, naresh came to the dinning hall with his childhood friend tashvi. I just blankly stared at their intertwined hands with a broken heart. Is Naresh going to marry his friend Tashvi ??. Even though I had doubts regarding her frequent visits to his mansion to meet him, I dismissed those doubts at the thought that she was just his friend. What would I do if he marries her ??. Didn't he love me ??. Will my love be an unrequited one as mama said ??. I stumbled back with tear filled eyes when he kissed her cheek. I understood that my love is going to be a unrequired one by seeing their proximity and lovey-dovey converse. As a result of stumbling, my back leaned on the wall. The second I leaned against the wall, sudden force emitted from the wall and made me fall to the floor. At the moment, I landed on the floor, a sob let out from my mouth in the pain as the result of an unexpected fall. As I was inspecting my hand for any scratches caused by the fall, I heard a furious voice.

"Did you know that while walking, you have to use your eyes ??. Shit !!.. You spoiled my coat."

Hearing that sudden angry voice, I lifted up my head and saw an enraged raghavan sir who was taking off his coat in anger. He shouted as he threw the coat towards his PA prakash,

"Throw it away."

I felt insulted and ashamed due to his words and actions. I tried to get up from the floor as the thought of protecting myself from further humiliation was predominant in my mind. As I was trying to get up from the floor, I felt the touch of my hand. Before I could see who was helping me to get up, I heard raghavan sir soft voice,

"Grandma.. Why are you helping her ??. Because of your soft nature, people like her will forget their worth and status."

I stand on my feets with the help of grandma and take out my hand from her grip and told her in low tone,

"Thank you grandma. I'm leaving."

Regardless of grandma's attempt to talk to me, I walk away from them. When I got a little farther away from them, I heard his shouting,

" How dare she walk away without even asking sorry. PRASANTH. Fire her. I shouldn't see her again in my house. I don't need an arrogant maid like her in my house."

I wiped my tears which formed due to his insulting words. I swore to myself that I will never come to this mansion to work again and that I will come to this house as the daughter in law of this house. I came to their house just to achieve my love but I will never give up my self esteem to achieve love. I make naresh brother who insulted me, to come to my house to ask my hand for his brother's marriage. I will do anything to get my love. I will not give up my love for anyone or anything. I will not hesitate to kill anyone in order to achieve my love.

No matter how much I cried, I wasn't able to relieve the pain which I felt in my heart. I joined as a chef in his mansion. I changed myself for him. I changed my long hair into short curly hair as he likes it. Even I dyed my hair into a pearly one according to his liking. Due to the reason he doesn't like the person who wears glasses, I stopped wearing glasses and used contact lenses. I used it even though it was uncomfortable for me.

After knowing that he likes women who wear modern clothes, I started to wear modern clothes the way he likes. Mama has advised me many times that the modern dress I wear is not looking good for me. I also know that a tight modern dress will not look good on me because of my overweight. Still I wore it for him. Regardless of the acne that has developed on my face as a result of cosmetics, I continue to use it for the sole reason that he likes it.

Even though I changed everything for him, one thing I could not change according to his wish is my weight. I made several attempts to make my 80kg to 50kg but nothing worked out for me. I thought that he would not mind my overweight as I changed so many things of mine to be his favorite. But today he totally scattered everything. Even Though he broke my embodyment, desire and dreams, I will not give up my love. I will fix everything as before. I will stop his marriage with tashvi and make him marry me. I will definitely do it.

Chapter 3

Harshika pov,

I could not figure out how all of my plans had failed. I fled the marriage hall, reluctant to view his marriage which was going to happen in a while as the result of my plans ended up in failure. Even though I stopped going to his mansion for work, I did not stop making plans to break off his relationship.

The first plan I made to stop his marriage was to add a drug in her diet that could pose no risk to her life but could be a little detrimental to her health. I implemented my first plan with the help of Stella. For one week, as I expected, her health deteriorated. However, after a week, her health improved and she returned to normal and healthy. After that no matter how much drug I added in her diet there was no deterioration in her health.

Realizing that I was not going to succeed in my first plan, I implemented my next plan that is to kidnap her with the help of gangsters. As per my guidance, gangsters made all the arrangements to abduct her. Contrary to my plan and the details I collected, she began to go outside with a well trained bodyguard. As the result of her trained bodyguard, kidnapping her became an impossible task.

Although my first two plans ended in failure, I did not stop making the next plan. As per my last plan, I locked her in the storeroom on her wedding day. However, somehow she managed to get out of the storeroom and come to the hall just in time for the marriage. Thus all my plans to stop his marriage officially ended up in failure.

As I was walking endlessly on the road in the agony, abruptly a police jeep came and stopped in front of me. I stepped back a few steps in the shock of seeing the police. I gulped my saliva in fear as the police officers approached me furiously. As I was standing dumbfoundedly without knowing what to do, the inspector declared.

"Miss. Harshika. You are under arrest for smuggling drugs."

I shook my head as no and denied it immediately,

"No.. I did nothing of the sort. Inspector, I think someone is trying to trap me in the fake case. I " 

My words cut away by inspector furious voice,

"Miss.. We have proof. "

After saying it, he ordered women police officers to arrest me. Regardless of my protest, lady police officer's tied a handcuff on my hand and dragged me towards a police jeep. No matter how many times I explained to them I did nothing wrong as they accused me. Regardless of my explanation, they locked me up in a police station lockup. Why have I been arrested on false charges ??. What would be the reason for this ??. It's true that I bought drugs and added it to the tashvi diet to stop her marriage with naresh but I have not smuggled any drugs as they accuse me. I do not mean to offend anyone, even though I thought to stop his marriage because of the love I had for him. I sat on the floor with the firm intent that the police will release me after knowing who I'm and where I'm staying.

As time went on, I began to lose my firm hope that the police would release me after learning that I was staying in the RK mansion. I understood everything clearly when raghavan sir P.A prakash  came to the police station. The police did not arrest me by mistake and it was a premeditated plan. The respect and love I had for Naresh's family turned into anger and zeal when Prakash handed over the photos of mine to the inspector. Those photos were taken when I bought drugs and when I went to meet gangsters to kidnap tashvi. Moreover, he ordered the inspector that I shouldn't get out of prison without receiving punishment for trying to hurt tashvi and also he added that no one should know that I did everything because of the obsession I had for naresh.

As time passed, the anger and hatred I had for the Naresh family increased. I was plotting plans in my mind to take revenge on them as soon as I was released from the prison. How dare they think that their status would be revoked if outsiders came to know that I did everything for my love which I had on naresh ??. How dare they put fake accusations on me ??. I will prove to them who I am the instant I stepped out from prison. I will destroy them without a trace of where they lived. Inspector words were like pouring oil on the burning anger,

"Miss.Harshika.. Sign in this file. If you do as I say, I will help you to get less penalty period. "

Without replying to him, I got up from the floor and took a file from his hand. I clenched my fist with gritted teeth when I saw the file claiming that I admitted to being a drug smuggler. I threw the file in the anger and stated firmly,

"I never smuggled any drugs. I know you are trying to trap me in a fake case. I will never accept a crime which I did not commit. I will not sign any file. I wi.."

Before I could complete my whole sentence, I felt sharp pain on my head and hair. I cried out in pain and shouted to leave her grip from my hair and hand. Regardless of my screaming, a lady officer twisted my hand more hardly on my behind and warned in dangerous tone,

" Never speak back and you have to obey and follow everything we say. Do you understand ??."

I bit my lower lip hard and cried silently without saying or gesturing anything. I will never admit the mistake I did not make and I will never bow down in front of others. Noticing my stubbornness, she seethed and raised her hand to slap me. Before her palm would imprint on my cheek, I heard mama voice,

"Madam.. Please don't hit her."

Tears formed in my eyes in happiness by hearing mama's words. The thought that mama would take me away from here, made me forget all the pain which I felt in my hand and head. I smiled and tried to look at the mama who was standing outside the lockup. Before I could see mama, I heard mama loud scream. Hearing mama scream, I turned and looked at a lady officer with a horror expression. She smiled sarcastically and told me in a mocking tone while showing the file in front of me which I throwed on the floor,

"Go and see your mama situation. And then decide whether to sign it or not"

I ran near to the lockup steel door and looked at mama who was lying on the floor in a fetal position while receiving an inspector kick on his body. I wailed out loudly and shaked steel door as I begged the inspector to not beat mama. My heart ached with the thought that I was the one who caused my aging uncle to face this situation. My uncle would not have faced this situation if I had not made any mistake to achieve my love. I regret falling in love with him. I regret making plans to stop his marriage. I regret being adamant. I regret not listening to mama warning. I regret everything.

Chapter 4

Harshika pov,

After 6 years :

" Ya fatty.. Order: Two sets of mutton gravy, one set of parotta, and one set of chicken noodles."

Hearing the waiter yell, I gave a small nod in return, keeping my gaze fixed on the wok.

Six years ago, I would answer arrogantly to people who teased me for being overweight, but nowadays I don't speak out against anyone who taunts me. Prison life has proven to me that our lives would be ruined if we opposed those who are more advanced in position and wealth than we are. My life has become an example of what happens when we oppose those who are higher in power and status than us. My obstinacy in pursuing my love has damaged not just my life, but also my mama's family. My mama begged and pleaded with insolent Raghavan to let me out of jail, but he was adamant that I should not be let out that easily. Furthermore, knowing that if mama was earning well, mama would not give up trying to get me out of jail, arrogant raghavan fired mama and chased mama's family out of his mansion.

As he had predicted, I was condemned to 5 years in prison and Mama's family was thrown into poverty. The mama was unable to send his daughter Meera to school after the eleventh grade due to financial constraints. Despite her ambition to become an engineer, Meera began working as a sales lady at a textile shop after graduating from high school in order to help her father, who was in terrible health, and to provide a better future for her brother. When I saw the condition of Meera, who came to pick me up on my release day from jail, and the state of their home, I could only cry. But, after recognising that crying wouldn't change anything, I started looking for a job.

At first, I tried to find work in a well-known and well-regarded restaurant, but I was unable to do so because of my prisoner status. Despite being turned down for work wherever I applied, I was adamant about fixing everything in Meera and Aarav's lives and ensuring that they had the finest possible future.

My firm decision eventually led me to work in a slum-area restaurant. Despite the fact that the hotel is located in a slum, the pay I receive is sufficient for me to take care of Mama's medications, my cousin's studies, and to run the family. I've been in this work for eight months now. As soon as I got my first income, I enrolled Meera in college. Everything is now running smoothly. Meera is attending college, Aarav is pursuing his education, and Mama's health has improved marginally. My main concern now is that I should not let any problems come into their lives anymore.. 

I exited the restaurant after winding up the work. When I left the restaurant, it was past 10 p.m. I took out my phone from my handbag to check whether I had missed any call. When I saw a missed call from Meera more than 4 times, the thought of something might have happened to mama made me tense. As I was viewing my phone display to check the time she made phone calls, suddenly I bumped into a wall. Before I could rub my forehead where I felt pain due to a sudden bump, I fell down on the pavement. I let out a weak cry as I felt sharp pain on my backhead. At the same time, I felt a soft touch and tickling sensation on my neckline along with the pain. Moreover, I felt a heavy weight like wood above me. Did any tree break and fall on me ??. I whimpered weakly as I could not able to push away the heavy weight from me,

" Someone.. Please.. help.. me "

Abruptly, the wood moved away from me as if it heard my words. Before I could let out a sigh of relief, I heard the voice of someone who I never wish to hear in my life again after that incident.

" Ya Lady.. Don't you have eyes ??."

Then it was not the wood that fell on me, its cruel and merciless raghavan. God !!.. I have to leave before he notices me. I got up quickly and sat on the floor despite the pain in my body as the result of falling down. I bowed my head and searched for my spectacle as everything around me was blurred to my eyes without the aid of spectacle. Regardless of his constant shouting near me, atlast I found my spectacle and wore it. Little smile crooked up on my face the instant I viewed everything clearly with the help of spectacle. After collecting my phone and handbag from the ground, I got up from the floor. Regardless of his presence, I begin to walk away from him. My steps paused due to his tight grip on my hand and his shouting,

" How dare you have to walk away from me without replying to me ??." 

Realizing that prolonging his rage further would lead me to face an unwanted problem. Therefore, I told him in low tone,

" Sorry sir. Please leave my hand. I have to go urgently."

Contrary to my thought that he would leave my hand after my apology, I felt his tight grip on my chin. He made me look at him using his grip on my chin. My chin hurt due to his grip. Even Though I wanted to remove his grip from my face, I was afraid that he would get angry if I touched him. I know that he doesn't like to be touched by someone like me. Therefore, I stood quietly and stared at his bloodshot eyes in fear. He is still looking the same as before. Even after reaching the age of 36, he is still looking handsome and young. His hard and toned muscles proving that he is a gym person. Damn it !!. What I'm doing now !!. Is I'm checking out this cruel and heartless devil !!. No way. He is the most ugliest and disgusting man I've ever seen. My thoughts are paused by his suspicion voice,

" You are looking like someone I've seen before. What's your name ??."

I nodded quickly as no and tried to speak but I could not speak due to his grip on my chin. Noticing it, he took his hand from my chin. I convinced him as I rubbed my chin to ease the pain,

" No sir.. I don't think that we met before. By the way sir, my name is vanessa. I think you misunderstood me as someone else."

As he was immersed in his thoughts, I used this as an opportunity and ran away from him. After reaching a little distance away from him, I shouted in high pitch.

" Sorry for everything sir. I hope we never meet again."

He looked at me furiously and began to move towards my direction when he heard what I said. I widened my eyes and began to run away from him again when I saw him approaching me fastly.

I slowed down my pace after knowing that he couldn't catch me. I gasped and leaned on the wall in the roadway and tried to bring my heartbeat back to normal. Why did we meet suddenly after all these years ??. Does he still remember the person who tried to destroy his brother's life according to his opinion ??. Is he married ??. Or.. Is he still unmarried with the memory of his lover ??. Damn it. What happened to me ??. What matters to me is whether he is married or not ??. Why am I interested to know about his life ??.

Chapter 5

Harshika pov,

Even though a sense of panic arose in my mind while walking alone on the road in the brightness of streetlight, I increased the pace of my walk as the notion of getting home rapidly prevailed in my mind. 

As I got closer to the house, I noticed that the light in our house was turned on, and I wondered who was awake at this hour. Everyone usually falls asleep when I come home. I used the duplicate key I had, to open the front door and slowly entered the house without making a sound. The house we are staying now has a hall, a shared bathroom, and a kitchen. We would all sleep in the hall as there is no bedroom in our house. As soon as I stepped into the home, I heard Meera's voice,

" Akka.. Don't I ask you to come early today ?. As you can see, while waiting for you, Aarav fell asleep."

Argh !!. I had completely forgotten about it. I attempted to make an excuse with a sheepish smile,

" That.. meera.. I"

Mama's voice cut me off in the middle of my statement and assured meera,

" Meera.. Allow her to sit down for a while first. You go ahead and fetch her something to eat. She will be very hungry as it is going to be 11pm."

" Harshika chellam (dear), Come and sit near your mama for a while."

I nodded and smiled cheeky as I went and sat near mama on a single bed where mama usually sleeps. Mama held my hand and begin to say in soft tone,

" I brought you with me by holding this same hand when you lost your parents and stood alone with the sole motive of setting up a better life for you. Back then you were a silent child and you would hide behind me in fear if you saw someone new. I was worried about you at the moment because of your unusable silent and fearful behavior. However, after getting Naresh sir's friendship, you changed completely and started to behave normally. That time, Naresh sir was also very fond of you and treated you as the most important person in his life. But everything changed when he moved to another country to pursue his studies. He returned from overseas after finishing his studies and treated you as if you were a stranger. Unable to accept his sudden change, you began to transform yourself according to his will. No matter how much you changed yourself for him, you weren't able to bring out the old love and friendship he had for you."

I closed my eyes and those memories were replayed in my mind as if everything had just happened while listening to mama's words. I was completely devastated and depressed due to my parents sudden demise. I begin to isolate myself due to the depression and fear with the thought that every person I love would go away from me like my parents. One day Naresh came and talked to me while I was sitting alone in the garden like every day. At first I didn't mind his attempt to talk with me.

Then, I started to talk with him slowly from the day he saved me from my classmates who tried to bully me. As a result of his friendship, I overcame depression and started to talk with everyone without any sadness or fear. He was a very special and important person in my life. He was there for me in every situation whether it was sad or happy. He would always convince me by saying I'm a chubby and beautiful girl and not an overweight girl like other teasing. And also he says that only the right person can see my shining and rare beautiness. Is it funny right ??. But that time I believed his words and promises blindly. 

At that time, I didn't see him in any other angle other than friendship. That time I was very sure that we were just friends. My surety also began to shake when he left me and went abroad for his studies. Even a single day without him feels like an era to me. His absence reminded me of how much I love him. I'd been waiting for him to return from abroad since the day I realized I loved him, and I was determined to reveal my feelings to him as soon as he did. However, his change in attitude toward me caused a rift in my love and determination to confess my feelings to him.

The thought that he was not talking with me due to my appearance, led me to change myself in the way he likes. As I thought, he started to notice me and would look at me with a smile occasionally. It was only when I believed everything was going to be the same as before, I came to know that he was going to marry tashvi. I opened my eyes and looked at mama with tear filled eyes as my thoughts were disturbed by mama voice and the touch I felt in my cheek. I listened mama advise silently as he wiped my tears,

" Chellam.. I didn't say it to make you remember everything. I know you wish to forget all of those painful memories. Just as you think to forget your painful memories, forget the mistake you made. Just because you did something wrong does not mean that you do not deserve to be happy. I fixed your marriage with Nakul for the sole reason that you should be happy in your life and get all the happiness you deserve. Even if you accept this marriage for me now, I have full confidence that you will regain the happiness in your life through this marriage. You should not give up hope in your married life by thinking of old mistakes you have made in your life. You should give chance to your married life and try to trust and love nakul. I'm confident that Nakul's unconditional love will make you fall in love with him. He loves you so much harshika."

I just nodded with a forced smile as a way to reply to mama's words. Will I get happiness again in my life ??.

I have no answers to some of the questions that constantly arise in my heart.

Did I forget naresh ??.

Don't I love him now??.

Just because our love does not succeed does not mean that our love is fake. Some loves are destined to be together, while others are destined to remain apart. Every time I tried to avoid thinking of him and his memories by telling myself that I should not think of him as he is married and it is not right to think of him, still his memories come and go in my mind like a storm and crushes my heart. His memories never fail to prove to me how unlucky I was and I do not deserve to be loved.

Marriage is a special, strong and deep relationship. It's a beautiful relationship for couples who love each other or are going to fall in love after their marriage. I'm very sure it'll never happen in my marriage. Due to Mama's relentless pestering, I consented to marry Nakul, a distant relative of mine. I'm not sure why he consented to marry someone who went to jail. Did he agree to this marriage for the happiness of someone else, just as I agreed to this marriage for Mama's happiness ?. There's only one week left for me to get married. Even though I constantly deny that I won't get any happiness in my life, still there is a little longing in the edge of my heart to get happiness again in my life like mama said.