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Author pen name : Esora05

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1. First of all, thank you for giving this story a chance. "My Heart Yearns For His Love" is my fifth story. 

2. I have all the rights reserved for this book as it solely belongs to me.

3. This book and the concept of "My Heart Yearns For His Love" is purely my imagination.

4. All the characters, scenes, names.. etc, are purely my imagination. If it matches with any other story or in real life, it's a pure coincidence.

6. This book contains mature content and language thus it does not mean that the author supports.

7. This book contains violence against women and body shaming scenes thus it does not mean that the author supports.

8. I don't allow anyone to copy and post my book on any other platforms without my consent..

9. Translation of my book in any other languages is also not allowed.

10. Constructive comments are always welcome but no personal bashing is allowed.

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Chapter 1

The sound of water running in the bathroom stopped and indicated to Meera that the time had come for her to leave the room. Even though her mind reminded her again and again that he will come out of the bathroom at any time, still she did not open her eyes or move her body. She curled up on the bed end with a blanket on her naked body. There is no part that she didn't feel pain. There is no energy left in her body even to move her fingers.

Even though she felt cruel pain in her body, her heart warmed up in contentment. She knows that he is sleeping with her to make her feel pain. She knows that he is not touching her with any kind of love or affection. She knows that he hates to touch her body, even though it gives him pleasure. Although she knows that how much he loathe her, she felt pure bliss whenever he touches her, at the thought that he was touching her as her husband. Although he detests her now, meera was sure that his hatred would eventually turn into love. She is willing to endure any cruel pain to turn this hatred of his into love.

“ You wh*re. What are you doing in my room yet ?. Did you forget the rules ?. Get out of my room.”

His outraged voice brought an end to all her thoughts and happiness. Sadness crossed her face for a second due to his hurtful remark. However, quickly, she changed her facial expression and put a fake smile on her face as she opened her eyes. Her eyes glistened in delight by viewing her husband who was standing near the bed with a towel around his waist. Meera cheek flushed by viewing her husband's bare broad chest. Meera pulled the blanket up to her face and hid her face in embarrassment. However, in a few seconds, the blanket was removed from her by Prakash furiously and made her naked body to expose him completely. Meera felt as if her entire body was frozen in shame. However, quickly she dispelled from her emotions and covered her chest with her hand when he glanced at each and every part of her body in disgust. Meera turned her eyes to the other side, unable to bear the crippling pain in her heart caused by his disgusting gaze.

Within seconds, he again made her look at him by pulling her towards him by holding her chin mercilessly. Meera felt hard pain on her chin due to his grip. In the way to add up more pain to her heart, he uttered in taunting tone,

“ Wow, meera. Again and again you are proving me that you are such a sl*t. Don't you  ashamed to be like this in front of me ?. Oh.. oh.. sorry.. I should not have asked you this question. How could I expect the person like you to have dignity, shame and all. It's my mistake. Sl*t like you don't mind standing naked in front of the customer, right ?. By showing off your ugly, useless body only, you can seduce your customer, right ?. But, don't try to do it to me, you wh*re. Because I am not interested in your ugly body at all.”

Tears gathered in her eyes due to his heart piercing words. Unable to hear his words which has power to kill her heart mercilessly, meera tried to remove his grip from her chin as she voiced out with a stutter,

“ So..rr...rrr..yyyy”

He loosened his grip a little due to her attempt to remove his grip from her. As he loosened the grip, meera pleads to him,

“ Sorry prakash. I didn't stay in the room with any other motive. I was not able to get up from the bed due to pain, that's why I laid in the bed. Now I will leave the room. Please leave me. It's paining.”

A mocking smile formed on Prakash's face as he listened to her words. He tightens his grip on her chin again when she pleads with him to leave her as the result of his grip on her chin paining her. Seeing her in pain gives him pure exultant. Seeing her tear-filled round eyes giving him satisfaction. Prakash glanced again at her cracked pale quivering lips and bruises on her light brown plumb body. His body again heats up with the desire to ravish her body once again.

Prakash had no feelings for the meera except extreme disgust and hate. But, still, he couldn't control the desire he felt whenever he looked at her ugly body. Again his desire begins to rule up his mind. As a result, he pushed Meera harshly on the bed and hovered her body by leaving a towel on the floor. He spread her legs harshly and entered her body in one go, without giving any chance for her to protest.

Meera screamed in pain when he entered her ruthlessly. He plunged into her forcibly, as if he didn't see or hear her tears nor cries. Meera's weak hands spontaneously tried to push him away as she experienced excruciating pain every time he plunged into her. He was immersed in seeking pleasure, as if her protest was nothing in comparison to his strength. Meera's hands fell helplessly on the bed, unable to defeat him. Meera cried silently as he left no way for her to escape from his clutches. He completely prisoned her body with his.

Prakash intertwined his fingers with hers as he increased the speed of his stroke. He knows that Meera was in pain. This is what he wishes to see every second. He is doing all this just to make her feel pain. He loves to see her tear - filled eyes. A ridiculous smile blossomed on Prakash's face as he viewed the tears flowing out of her eyes. In order to make her feel more pain, he bent and took her right bosom nipples on his lips and sucked and bit it harshly. Unable to bear his torture, meera begged as she cried out loudly,

“ Prakash.. please leave me.. it's paining, prakash.. Please.. don'.. don't.. Ahaa.. please slow down.. Otherwise, I will die. “

Chapter 2

Meera wailing and pleading boosts up prakash frenzy and leads him to behave more violently. His violence and endless thrusts brought him intense pleasure. He moved his lips to her neck from the bosom in the utmost pleasure and showered a kiss on her neck crazily. As he reached a peak of pleasure, he realized her hands and hugged her tightly and trailed kisses on the neck and jawline. Although he hugged her tightly, Meera didn't return the hug or kiss him. She just laid in bed as her tear filled gaze fixed on the ceiling. She didn't feel even a little bit of pleasure. She only felt an extreme level of pain. However, Prakash didn't like that she was lying like a lifeless body. Therefore, he whispered in her earlobe in a deep tone,

“ Hug me back, meera.”

By hearing his voice, Meera did not even move her eyelids. She remained in the same position. Noticing her ignorance, prakash bite her shoulder in anger in order to punish her and commanded in a hard tone,

“Look at me, meera”

This time, Meera moved her glance towards his face. At the instant her glance landed on him, she breaks down completely and pleaded him with a whimper,

“ Please.. leave.. me.. I.. ca..”

Prakash didn't let her complete the entire sentence by capturing her lips with his. Meera struggled to turn away her face, but Prakash held her head in the way that she could not turn her head.

Meera cries and tears begin to dry up due to his slow and passionate kiss. Her entire body heats up in pleasure due to his slow and steady thrust. As each thrust began to build up her orgasm, she deepened the kiss by placing her hand around his shoulder. Meera clutched his shoulder more tightly when he released his seeds inside her along with her orgasm. Prakash stayed still inside her for a few seconds as his gaze lingered on Meera's exhausted flushed face. He left her body harshly as he remembers her evil doings which she did to ruin his life. After he got out of the bed, he picked up the towel from the floor and tied it around his waist as he warned her in a cold tone,

“There should be no sign that you were in this room when I come back from the shower, or else you will be punished more cruelly than this.”

After Meera nodded her head in the way to agree with his words, he walked towards the bathroom to wash off her disgusting touch on his body.

Ignoring her body pain, Meera slowly got off the bed with a flushed face. She knew that if she didn't leave the room like prakash warned then he wouldn't even hesitate to punish her more cruelly than this. She picked her clothes lying on the floor at the corner of the room. After putting on her clothes, she went towards the wardrobe and took a new set of bedsheets from the wardrobe. Then, she went near to the bed and took the shriveled bedsheet from the bed and arranged the bed with a new set of bedsheet and pillow cover. After collecting the dirty bedsheet and pillow cover in hands, she slowly walks out of the room.

This is something Meera usually does before leaving his room. This is the order of prakash that she should clean the bed without leaving any trace of her presence in his room before leaving the room. He doesn't sleep with her on a regular basis. Once or twice a week he would order her to come to his room at night. First time he commanded her to come to his room, she thought that he called her to his room to talk about something. It was only after she went to his room that she came to know about his real intention of asking her to come to his room. At that time, she was overjoyed with happiness, with the assumption that he had started to fall in love with her, that's why he desired to sleep with her. Therefore, without denying his command she coincided with his desire. She isn't ashamed to sleep with him as he mocked her. Because he is her husband and it is her duty to fulfill his desire and she has every right to be with him physically. Moreover, Meera loves him so much and she is ready to do anything for his happiness. Therefore, she endured all the pain he caused her due to his frenziness in bed with the intention to give him happiness and pleasure. If he is getting happiness through her body, then she is ready to endure any cruelty for his happiness. From that day onwards, again they both began to live physically as husband and wife.

Every time, he treats her body ruthlessly and harshly at first, but then he eases up his frenzy and puts a little emphasis on pleasuring her. Although Prakash detest her, Meera believes that he has a little bit of love for her in the corner of his heart with the thought that, otherwise why would he change his rough self on the bed and try to subside her pain by handling her body softly after seeing her in pain. Meera reassured herself that he has some fondness for her in his heart but his anger and zeal is not allowing him to expose it completely. Meera was fully convinced that one day he would reveal his love for her and accept her as his wife and treat her with respect and love. However, little did she know that she was living in a dream world and one day he would mercilessly throw her away from his life without giving any importance to her pain nor feelings.

Meera gaze lingered on the photo frames hanging on the wall connected to stairs as she descended the steps to go to her room downstairs. A bright smile blossomed on her face as she touched her angel face on the photo frame who is sitting near the prakash cheekily. After placing a kiss on the angel cheek on the photo frame, Meera descended the steps and went to her room.

Chapter 3

The pain she felt till then on her body vanished into thin air when she saw her angel sleeping soundly on the bed. She walks near the bed without making any sound and laid on the bed by facing her angel.

A radiant smile flowered on Meera's lips when her daughter Keerthi hugged her in her sleep. Meera embraced her daughter and placed a soft kiss on her daughter's forehead and admired her daughter, who was sleeping with a slightly opened mouth cutely. Her daughter resembled just like her father except her curly hair which is inherited from her mother. While admiring her daughter, Meera slowly started to fall asleep.

Prakash walked out of the bathroom after a shower and glanced around the room where there was no sign of meera presence. Similarly, he wishes for her to disappear from his life without leaving any trace. Even though he wishes for it, he knows that it will never happen. The sign of her presence in his life will always be there in his life through his daughter keerthi. There is no doubt that Prakash loves his daughter. Likewise, there is no doubt that he hates his wife, meera.

Even though her trace will be left in his life through his daughter lifelong, he felt little peace when he thought that she would be out of his life after six months. He has to wait for just six months. After that, he can lead his life peacefully with his daughter.

After wearing a normal shirt and pants, Prakash took a cigarette pack and lighter from the nightstand and went to the balcony which is attached to his room. He leaned on the handrail on the balcony by placing his hands on it as he lightened the cigarette.

He felt something weighing in his heart when he saw the empty street, with the thought that his life is as empty as this empty street. Even after smoking one full cigarette, he didn't return back to room to sleep. He took the next one from the cigarette pack and put it in his mouth and lit it and began to seek relief in smoking. It has been many days since he slept peacefully in his life.

Generally he has not experienced great happiness nor bliss in his life but he has been leading a somewhat peaceful life until Meera enters his life. Meera entered into his life and destroyed even that little peace completely and left only emptiness and sadness in his life. God has given him a daughter like he wished in his life but not through the woman he desired but through a woman he hated. He dreamed of marrying a girl who was perfect in every way. But, Meera is completely opposite to what he wished.

He likes the girl who has long and silky hair, but Meera has short and curly hair. He likes the slim girl with perfect body structure, but Meera is an overweight girl with imperfect body structure. He likes a jovial and carefree type girl, but Meera is timid and doesn't talk much with others. There are so many things which he doesn't like in meera. He hates everything about her. She is just a fat ugly girl who is not suitable for him anyway.

He hates himself for touching her ugly fat body. Many times he had determined himself not to touch in order to fulfill his physical needs. However, he couldn't control his needs for so long no matter how hard he tried. At one point, he could give up his control and ask her to come to his room to fulfill his needs. He is disgusted to do it with her, but as a man he too has a need to fulfill. He is not a man who would sleep around with anyone to fulfill his needs. Even though he loathe her, she is his wife legally. Therefore, he has every right to use her for his needs. He does not feel that what he is doing is wrong, because he is using her for his pleasure, just as she destroyed his life and used him for her happiness. He is just doing the same thing she did to him for her happiness.

As the sun poured its fresh ray into the kitchen and provided brightness and refreshment to Meera, who was immersed in cooking. She waked up a little late in the morning due to the tiredness of prakash's torture on her body till the dawn. She tried to speed up her cooking, fearing that Prakash would be angry if she was late to prepare breakfast.

As she was busily cooking, her gaze landed on the clock in the dining hall. Her brows snapped together when the clock indicated the time was 8 o'clock. She hurriedly left her work mid-way and walked towards her room to see that her angel had woken up from her sleep. However, before she could enter the room, Prakash came out of her room by holding the angel in his arms.

Keerthi looked at meera with a hint of sleepiness in her eyes and called out meera as she extend her hand towards meera in the way to indicate meera to carry her,

"Meera amma (mother)."

Prakash's explanation to Keerthi makes Meera pause her action, that of stretching out her hand to hold her daughter.

"Keerthi darling.. How many times have I told you not to call Meera as amma ?. Meera is not your mother. She is a just servant who is working here to take care of you. Call her aunty. Okay."

Meera's face paled after hearing his words. Once again he pierced her heart ruthlessly with his words. The cruelest thing in the world for Meera is his merciless words. His words have the power to tear apart her heart cruelly. His words are powerful enough to cause her endless pain and sadness. Meera looked at prakash with broken heart when her daughter asked him in a soft tone,

" Appa.. Then, who is my amma ?. And where is she now ?. "

Chapter 4

Prakash never thought that he would have to answer such a question to his daughter. He glared at Meera enragingly when he thought that she was the one who made him face this situation. If only Meera had not entered his life, he would have married the girl he liked and set up his life happily and he would not be forced into a situation where he could not tell his own daughter who is her mother. Seeing Meera standing as if she had nothing to do with the situation he was facing now, made Prakash even more angry. However, he controlled his anger in order not to expose his anger in front of his daughter and tried to explain his daughter smoothly,

" Darling, you don't have a mother. You don't need a mother when your father is there. I will take good care of you as a father and a mother. Okay.."

By hearing her father explanation, keerthi think for a while with confused expression and voice out in a sad tone,

" Why don't I have a mother when all my friends have a mother ?."

Meera's eyes began to welled up with tears due to her daughter's innocent query. But Prakash was very determined that his daughter should not know that Meera is her mother. Therefore, he begin to convince his daughter by stating,

" Baby doll.. You are a blessed child. That's why God gifted you only with father. Your friends are not blessed like you, that's why they get both mother and father."

This time by hearing prakash reply, keerthi grinned and exclaimed in a happy tone with innocent beaming eyes,

" It means I'm special, right appa ?."

Prakash smiled and kissed keerthi chubby cheek as he confirmed,

"Yes babydoll. You are a special one."

Prakash's words added more sparkle to Keerthi's face. But, Meera stood watching them with a heavy heart as they both happily conversed. Even though they were standing a little apart, it seemed to her that they had gone far away from her. It seemed to her that they had walked far away from her, as if their lives had nothing to do with hers. She couldn't bear the pain that rose in her heart when she thought how she could live if they left her. No matter how much pain Prakash gave her, she didn't mind those pains. Because, those pain is nothing compared to the happiness she felt by living in their life as a wife and mother. Now she has only one wish in her life: to be part of prakash and her daughter's life for the rest of her life. For that, if she has to be a maid, then she is ready to be a maid.

She ignored the pain that arose in her mind with that thought that she was going to be only maid in his house forever, and extend her hand to keerthi as she uttered in light tone,

" Keerthi chellam (dear). Come, let's go and bath. You are getting late for school."

After saying it, she went near them and held Keerthi's hand to carry her from prakash. However, prakash steps back in the way to stop her from touching keerthi and stated in a hard tone,

" You go and do kitchen work. From today onwards, Keerthi will take a bath on her own. If she learns all the things to do for herself from now onwards only, she will be able to manage everything on her own after six months when you leave the job as you promised."

After listening to prakash's last words, meera felt as if someone had placed a heavy stone on her heart in the way to make her feel difficult to breath. She don't know what to do when prakash stated what she  had been praying to god for so long that should not happen. She felt like her head was heavy when she thought of leaving her daughter. Everything in front of her was a little blurry to her eyes. There was only one thing deep in her mind that she would never leave her daughter for any reason. Therefore, she approached prakash with that thought and tried to took keerthi from prakash hand as she blabbered like a mad,

"Give her to me. I will take care of her. I will not go anywhere. I will always be with my dau.."

Prakash was not interested to understand the reason for meera sudden change of behavior. A rage shot up to prakash veins when meera forcefully tried to take keerthi from his hand regardless of frightened keerthi. Keerthi was crying and hugging her father in fear due to Meera's mad behavior. Fury completely ruled over his body when Meera tried to announce that keerthi is her daughter in front of keerthi. Therefore, he slapped Meera hard. Due to his slap, Meera fell down on the floor. His slap provides once again that her place in his life.

Even though she fell down due to a slap, she did not give up her efforts. She quickly got up from the floor and went near to prakash as she begged him,

"Please.. Don't do this to me. I can't live without keerthi. Please give her to me. I will take care of her. Please.."

By hearing meera pleading, prakash smiled sarcastically and asked meera in a mocking tone as he patted keerthi back to appease her,

" Can't you live without keerthi ?."

Meera cried and nodded as yes with tear filled eyes. Regardless of her cries, he moved towards her and whispered in her ear,

"Then.. Die soon, bitch.. Eagerly waiting for that day.. I mean.. your death day.."

His words proved to her again how much he detest her.

Regardless of Meera's broken state, prakash takes keerthi to her room and helps her get ready for school. Meera stood at the same place for a long time with tear filled eyes and heavy heart as her gaze fixed on the closed door of her room. Prakash's words completely crushed her hope and desire to be with them.

Chapter 5

Even though Prakash tormented her through his words and actions, Meera had blind faith that one day he would forgive her for her wrongdoings and accept her as his wife wholeheartedly. But, she never expected that he would still remember the agreement she made with him in a tough situation in order to be with her own daughter.

According to the agreement, she have to leave from her daughter and his life when her daughter reached the age of five without fighting  for any rights for her daughter. Her daughter is going to reach age 5 in six more months. That's why today prakash reminded her about their agreement. She only has six more months to live with her daughter and prakash. After that.. What was she going to do ?. She has to do something to change Prakash's decision. She should do something to be in their life.

She is even ready to do wrongdoings to stay in their life again. She is not in a position to analyze and decide what is right and wrong. She has only one wish, to be part of Prakash and her daughter's life till her death.

Even if she could not live in their life as a mother or wife, she at least has to be in their life as a maid. She has to repeat the same thing which was the reason for Prakash and her marriage.

After deciding how to carry out her plan to trap Prakash in her life again, She wiped her tears and went to the kitchen to continue cooking which she left halfway.

After cooking, she arranged breakfast on the dining table and packed lunch for prakash and keerthi. After keeping the packed lunch on the dining table, she waited for Keerthi and Prakash to come out of the room to have their breakfast.

On the way to end her wait, Prakash came out of the room with Keerthi in his arms. Keerthi is neatly dressed up in her school uniform with the help of prakash. Meera felt shooting pain in her heart by seeing Keerthi, who was perfectly dressed to go to school. Seeing keerthi getting ready so beautifully without her help, she felt as if she was no longer needed in keerthi life anymore.

Keerthi, a small child, does not know that she was hurting meera. When her father told her that she had to get ready to go school by herself, it seemed like a new game to her. So, she happily agreed with her father and got ready to go school with the help of her father. Meera usually does everything for keerthi like bathing her, dressing her, tying her hair. But today when her father did all that instead of meera, keerthi felt happy.  Therefore, as soon as she saw meera, she chirped in the happiness with joy beaming eyes,

" Meera aunty.. How am I looking ?"

Even though meera felt stinging pain in her heart when keerthi called her as aunty, she covered it up and replied Keerthi with a fake smile,

"As usual, you are looking beautiful chellam (dear). Looks like my Keerthi chellam grew up as a big girl."

Exhilaration bleamed in keerthi face by hearing meera words and she exclaimed meera in a childish tone,

"Yes aunty. Now I have become a big girl. Appa told me that only big girls can get ready  themselves. See.. Today I also got ready myself. So, now I am also a very big girl. Right, appa ?."

Prakash smiled hearing his daughter's sweet tone reply and nodded as yes in the way to give assurance to his daughter's queries and kissed her cheek. And he asked keerthi to use this moment to make meera understand that she was no longer needed in their lives,

"Yes, babydoll.. Now you are grown up as a big girl. You don't need meera aunty help anymore, right ?."

Prakash's intriguing question to keerthi made Meera's to clench her fist hardly in fear that her daughter herself would agree with prakash's decision that she is not needed in her life. Fear begins to kill her slowly. Every second she waited for her daughter's reply, she felt like she was standing on fire. Her daughter responded as like she scared,

" Yes appa. I don't need meera aunty help anymore."

Meera's entire body stumbled back with tear filled eyes as she listened to her daughter's words. Even her own daughter declared firmly that she doesn't need her own mother in her life. Is the punishment for her wrongdoings ?. Any other punishment would not have hurt her this much. Even if Prakash had killed her for her wrongdoing, she would not have suffered this much pain. But, her daughter's words had caused her endless pain. No mother in this world should ever face such a situation in their life.

Prakash was pleased to see Meera hurt filled eyes due to Keerthi's response. Extreme happiness arose in his heart as he viewed her tears. It was comforting for him to see her experiencing pain in front of him.

A proud smile sprouted on his lips with the thought that he had given back the same pain which she caused in his life. He didn't even feel a little bit of compassion after seeing her grief. Because she doesn't deserve anyone's  compassion. Even though she decided to smash his desires, dreams and happiness mercilessly, still he expected a little mercy from her. But, she made him face more disgrace and hurt instead of mercy.

According to Prakash, no one in this world will be more cruel and merciless as Meera and her sister harshika. Both of them planned everything perfect and trapped him in their web to fulfill their desires.

By seeing Prakash smirk, Meera understood that he is doing everything to cause her pain. Meera, who had been doubting whether she would do the evil deed, was reassured by Prakash's behavior that if she didn't, he would completely erase her from her daughter's life. Meera wiped her tears with the determination to proceed with her plan from today onwards. She suppressed the pain in her heart and went near the dining hall as she uttered in a calm tone.

"Keerthi chellam, come. Let's have breakfast."

After saying that, she began to serve breakfast on plates as usual. However, her actions paused when prakash commented her in a cold tone,

" We will have our breakfast. We don't need your service."

By hearing prakash words, Meera just nodded as okay without having strength to argue with him as she agreed with him,

"Okay."

Chapter 6

After replying to prakash, Meera walks towards her room as her presence is no longer needed there. Moreover, she knew that even if she wished to stand there, Prakash wouldn't allow to stand there and would order her to leave as he didn't like her presence near him.  When she was about to enter the room, prakash called her and announced her in firm tone,

" Wait a minute. You don't need to drop or pick up keerthi to school anymore. From today onwards, she will go to school in her school van. And also, pack all of Keerthi's belongings and shift it to the room next to mine upstairs. She will sleep with me at night from today onwards. As we don't need your help anymore, you can leave this house now itself if you want. Otherwise, you can leave after six months as per our agreement."

Meera's face was ashen due to the prakash declaration. She supported herself with the help of a wall as she lost her entire body strength. Even though Meera has lost complete faith that Prakash will change his decision, she doesn't give up her zeal to change his decision somehow. She wetted her dry lips with her tongue in order to strengthen her body and tried to push back the tears which is ready to explode anytime. Meera knows that showing her weakness in front of prakash will boost up his arrogance and decisiveness further. Therefore, she pretended to be unfazed in front of him and tried to speak out,

" Prakash.."

By hearing Meera's voice, Prakash shifted his gaze to Meera from his daughter who was cutely chewing the food he had fed her. He raised his hand in the way to indicate to her to be silent as he glared at her furiously.

Regardless of prakash implicit warning, meera again tried to voice out,

"Prakash.. Please try to understa.."

This time Meera's attempt stopped in midway due to prakash ominous cold voice,

" Stop it, meera. Don't you know what it means to be quiet ?. How many times have I warned you not to bring any discussion about us in front of keerthi ?. No matter how many times I warn you, it's not going to get into your mud skull. A selfish person like you will only give more importance to their own interests than others. I have never seen such a disgusting person like you in my life. Don't just stand in front of me with your useless face. Get lost from my sight."

Meera who was determined not to show her weakness to prakash, on hearing prakash harshful words, lost all her strength and exploded her weakness by shedding out all her tears which she had held back till then.

Even though prakash threatened meera to get out of his sight, Meera was so determined that somehow she had to convince prakash to change his decision or to plead with him to let her be with her daughter. Therefore, Meera remained at the same place and cried silently as she waited for a chance to talk to him.

On the other hand, Prakash focused on feeding keerthi without paying any heed to meera's broken state or her tears. He did not even look back at Meera's side as if she wasn't standing there, and also he did not allow his daughter to turn her attention towards meera.

After feeding keerthi, Prakash took his daughter and went out to send off keerthi to school.

Meera stood at the same place silently as she watched prakash and keerthi leaving the house, without following them. Because she knew that if she followed Prakash, it would anger him further. Therefore, she quietly waits for prakash to come back after sending off keerthi to school.

Anyhow prakash did not take much time and came back to the home within a few minutes after sending keerthi to school in her school van. Seeing Prakash entering the house, Meera ran near him and started to pour out everything on her mind which she had been suppressed till then.

" Sorry prakash. I know I was wrong. I shouldn't have married you hiding everything from you. I swear I didn't hide it with the intention of cheating you. If you want to punish me for what I have done, punish me in some other way. I will tolerate whatever you do. But don't separate my child from me. I can't imagine my life without you and my baby. Please don't do this to me, prakash. Please prakash."

Prakash didn't even feel the slightest bit of pity after seeing Meera's wails and cries. His eyes twinkled with exhilaration instead of compassion and a sarcastic smile lingered on his face by seeing the broken and vulnerable state of meera. Prakash was very happy to see the miserable state of Meera who is the cause of all the sufferings he has been experiencing in his life for the last five years. Prakash wished to see Meera writhe in agony every second of his life. With this cruel thought, he grabbed her cheek and pulled her towards him. To make her feel pain, he tightened his grip on her cheek mercilessly as he replied her in a scornful tone,

" Meera, truth to be told, I am very happy to see you in this condition. All these tears and pains of yours make me feel like I'm in heaven. Actually, I also wish to see you living with endless pain and misery every second of my life. But, at the same time, I don't want you to stay in my daughter's life. Because, you will spoil her life too if I let you stay with us. I don't want my daughter's life to spoil. I don't want any of your bad character and thoughts to come to her. If you are in her life, at some point she may learn all your evildoings and ruin her life. I don't want it to happen. So, as I said, you have to leave my house before the end of six months. Got it ?. Don't show your face in front of me by asking such unnecessary questions. Stay silently for these six months in my house and go away from our lives without creating any problem. Moreover, Do not come in front of me unnecessarily for these six months. I don't want to see your disgustful face very often. So, stay within your limits. It's good for you."

After saying it, he pushed her away like dust and turned to walk away from there.

Chapter 7

Due to Prakash's forceful push, Meera lost her balance and fell down on the floor. Even though she felt pain in her body due to sudden fall, regardless of the pain she pleaded prakash,

" Prakash, Meera is my daughter too. To be so, how can I think of spoiling her life. I also want her to be happy in her life. I will never cause any problem in her life. Please let me be with her. Please prakash. If you think that she will be spoiled if she knows that I am her mother, then as you are saying now, I will continue to be a maid but please do not separate me from her. I will never tell her that I am her mother. Please prakash.. Please.. Let me stay with her."

Prakash's anger increased when he saw Meera repeating the same thing over and over regardless of his warning. Not wanting to waste his time anymore by explaining anything to her, Prakash decided to leave without answering anything to her. Therefore, he moved away from there and began to climb the stairs to go to his room.

Seeing Prakash who went quietly without replying to her, Meera shouted as got up from the floor and tried to go towards him.

"Prakash.. Please listen to me.."

However, before she would approach him, her steps paused due to doorbell sound.

Hearing the sound of the doorbell, Prakash paused his steps and turned to see who rang the doorbell. By seeing middle aged woman standing near the front door, prakash turned around and walk towards her with a smile as he invited her inside the home,

"Come inside, aunty. I've been waiting for you for so long."

Hearing Prakash's welcoming words, Kalpana smiled and entered the house. As soon as kalpana entered the house, her gaze landed on the meera who was looking at her with tear filled eyes. When she saw crying Meera, a doubt arose in Kalpana's mind that the house she was coming to work at was the right one.

Kalpana is a middle aged woman from a poor family, who lives her life by doing housework to support her family. Kalpana has full responsibility to look after her two childrens due to her husband's drug addiction. Therefore, if it comes to know that there is a need for housework somewhere, Kalpana will immediately agree to it and go to that job to manage her house.

Prakash was a friend of her boss Nivin where she is working and she came to work at prakash's house as per her boss Nivin request. Kalpana immediately agreed to Nivin's request and agreed to work at Prakash's house, with the intention to earn more money. Even though it would be difficult to work at two homes at the same time, she decides to come to this job regardless of her hardships in order to give her children the life they desire.

Kalpana thoughts were shattered due to prakash voice,

" Akka (sister), I think Nivin has already told you everything. You don't have to do much work here. You just have to cook food and keep the house clean. Just like you agreed, you can cook breakfast and lunch in the morning and dinner in the night according to your convenience. Breakfast and lunch should be ready before 8.30 Am and dinner also should be ready before 8 pm. Nivin will have already told you about salary details. Let me know if you are not okay with it. Once you finish your work, you can go home anytime. That's it, akka. Is it okay for you to work here ?."

Kalpana didn't seem to have a problem with any of the prakash conditions. Therefore, she agreed with prakash words and asked him,

" I am okay with everything you said, sir. It is already 9 am. Have you had your breakfast, sir ?. If you haven't had breakfast, I will prepare it quickly for you."

Kalpana's caring inquiry gives Prakash the satisfaction that he has hired the right person. Prakash smiled and replied her in a soft tone,

" No akka. I already had my breakfast. Today you don't need to prepare breakfast and lunch. Today you have to just shift my daughter's belongings to an upstairs room. Come akka. I will show you from which room to which room you have to shift my daughter's belongings."

After saying it, Prakash walked towards Meera's room. Kalpana also followed him obediently. Prakash paused his steps, when he approached near meera, and informed kalpana about meera as his stare fixed on meera with a mocking smile,

" By the way akka, I forgot to inform you about this person. She is none other than the maid of this house until this morning. From the last few days, she forgets her limits and starts to behave as she wishes. That's why I fired her and appointed you in that position."

Prakash has been giving meera shock after shock since this morning. Meera was totally stunned when suddenly a woman came and proclaimed that she is going to replace all her duties. She felt as if her heart was burning in agony with the thought that he was doing everything as he said and he is very certain that she should not be in her daughter's life. Moreover, his further humiliation in front of Kalpana pained her burning heart cruelly and gathered fresh tears in her eyes once again. However, regardless of her tears, Prakash continued his talk in a way to humiliate her more.

"Even though I fired her from work, I allowed her to stay here for another six months in pity. I have given her this six months as it will be difficult for her to find a good job due to her sudden termination. You have to prepare food for her as well. Always keep her share of food in her room after you finish cooking. And also don't let her do any household chores. She is going to live in this house as an unwanted guest for the next six months. So, don't involve her in any matter which is related to us or this house. Okay."

Chapter 8

Meera's whole body trembled with anxiety as she heard Prakash's every word as if she was nothing to him. She closed her eyes and let out a long sigh with a heavy heart. In order to control her trembling, she braced herself and took a deep breath to hold up her totally collapsed emotions. After embracing the whole pain within herself, Meera unsealed her reddened eyes and moved her eyes towards the staircase by hearing stepping sounds.

A weak smile slipped out from meera lips by  viewing prakash and kalpana figure who are ascending the stairs. Regardless of the brutal pain that rose in her heart again, Meera went to her room and started to pack keerthi belongings. Meera knew that Prakash would throw her out of the house today itself if she didn't pack Keerthi belongings and hand them over to Kalpana as he said. Therefore, she started packing all of the keerthi belongings, realizing that in the current situation, resisting any of the prakash commands will not bring her any good.

However, she wasn't able to control the feeling that was rising deep in her heart as if something was separating her daughter from her life. As she packs the keerthi belongings, unknowingly tears begin to flow out from her eyes continuously. The thought that maybe she would become an unwanted person in her daughter's life began to taunt her slowly.

Meera came out from her inner struggles and thoughts due to throat clearing sound. Meera turned around and looked at Kalpana who was standing near the door hesitantly. At the instant Meera gaze fell on her, Kalpana plastered a fake smile on her face and stood hesitantly at the same place. Meera also faked a smile in response and told her in a mild tone,

" Please come inside. Now, I am packing keerthi things only like prakash sir ordered. I will complete it in a while. After that, you can arrange it in the upstairs room."

Kalpana shook her head as okay in the way to reply meera and inquired her doubt to meera,

" May I know your name ?. By the way, who is Keerthi ?."

As soon as Kalpana asks who is Keerthi, Meera feels that she should shout out that she is my daughter but she controlled her emotions and replied in a plain tone,

" Keerthi is Prakash sir's daughter."

Kalpana nodded and went near to meera and asked her in a disappointing tone,

" Are you angry with me, thangachi ( younger sister) ?. Are you mad at me for thinking that I took away your job ?. I didn't know that you are already working here. I didn't do it intentionally. You look like my sister in my hometown. Seeing your worried face makes me feel sad that I am the cause of your sadness."

Meera smiled weakly by hearing kalpana innocent questions and replied her in a soft tone,

"No akka. I am not angry with you."

Kalpana turned her face away in fake anger and questioned her in a sad tone,

" You are lying. If you're not mad at me, why didn't you tell me your name yet ?."

On hearing Kalpana's complaint, Meera chuckled and replied to Kalpana who was showing her anger and affection towards her shortly after arriving, thinking of her as her own younger sister.

"My name is Meera, akka."

After their small conversation, Kalpana helps Meera to pack Keerthi's belongings. Countless times meera gently insists to kalpana that she doesn't need kalpana's help as she can pack keerthi belongings alone. However, Kalpana continues to help Meera in packing without listening to her words.

After they finished packing everything, they started to make arrangements to move it in the upstairs room together. At this time Kalpana asked Meera to take a rest. However, Meera helped Kalpana regardless of her words. Kalpana's affectionate words and caring and kindful behavior made Meera to forget all her sorrows a little bit unknowingly. After many years, only today Meera talked to someone casually regardless of her grief and pain.

However, in a while, prakash, who came out of his room to go to his office after getting ready, spotted meera carrying a box upstairs with a smiling face while talking with kalpana.

Prakash who was living with the determination that meera should never be happy, couldn't tolerate meera happy state even a little. Therefore, he furiously calls out the kalpana name in a way to put a hindrance to Meera happiness as if she has bought a curse that she should not have any happiness in her life.

"KALPANA AKKA."

Kalpana, who was carrying a box to an upstairs room with Meera while having a conversation with her, paused her steps and looked at the fuming Prakash with a horror expression when he shouted her name. Realizing that she had done something wrong that's why prakash calling her this much angrily, Kalpana left the box she was carrying on the steps of stair and rushed towards prakash and asked him in a low tone,

" What happened, sir ?."

Without diverting his furious gaze from meera, prakash roared to kalpana, who ran to him after hearing his call,

" Have you forgotten what I told you a while ago ?."

By hearing prakash words, kalpana snapped her brows together in bewilderment and uttered with a stutter,

" That.. sir.. I didn't.. do anything.. wrong.. I was just doing the work which you told me to do. I don't understand what you are talking about. "

Prakash felt irritated while listening to kalpana words as if she didn't know what she did was wrong. In frustration, he sucked in a long breath as he massaged the back of his neck in order to control his frustration. After a moment of silence, prakash again asked kalpana in a calm tone as he pointed out his index finger towards meera,

"What is she doing here ?"

Meera too didn't understand anything when he called out the kalpana name furiously. Even though Meera wanted to know why Prakash was looking angry, still she kept quiet by understanding that she had no right in this house to question anyone. However, she didn't expect that she would be the cause of Prakash's anger now. When Prakash pointed out his finger towards her and questioned her, she understood that she was the reason for his anger this time too. Therefore, she stood silently in shock with a bowed head.

Chapter 9

As the result of Prakash's sudden enquiry about Meera, Kalpana turned and looked at Meera in perplexity. Kalpana didn't understand why Meera was standing with bowed head in fear like she did something wrong. Seeing Kalpana standing like statue as her gaze fixed on meera without answering any of his questions, prakash got angry again and snapped his fingers in front of kalpana and question her again in a harsh tone,

" Why are you standing silently like a statue. Come on, answer me. What she is doing here ?."

Kalpana turned her attention towards prakash again by hearing snapping sound and replied him with a stutter,

"Sir.. That .. she is.. helping.. me."

After giving one last warning glare to meera, prakash turned his glance to kalpana as he warned her in a serious tone,

" Listen kalpana akka. This is my last warning. I have already told you about this. Once again I'm saying. She has nothing to do with this house and she should not do anything related to this house. Moreover, try to avoid talking to her. That is good for you and your job. The only responsibility you have for her is to cook food for her. Just keep her food in front of her room. That is more than enough for her level. Sorry to say this, akka. I will not hesitate to replace you with someone else If you disobey any of my orders related to her. Don't make me to do it."

After warning kalpana, he walked towards meera and ordered her, regardless of kalpana who was standing in a daze due to his warning,

"Follow me."

By hearing prakash talking about her lowly, meera eyes begin to produce a fresh tears in the way to express her grief and pain. Meera hung her head down as if his words did not affect her without expressing any objection to his words.

Prakash insulting or scolding her is not new to Meera, but till today he has never insulted her in front of others. Anyway, as a way to put an end to the old act of his, he has started a new habit of insulting her in front of others as a new habit from today onwards. Anyhow, she has to endure all this as a punishment for her deceitful act.

Meera took a deep breath with the thought that she had to tolerate all his insulting and enraging words just for a short time. After that, he will go to the office and she can carry out the plan which she planned before and make prakash to fall in her grip again. However, just as opposite to her expectation, Prakash's comment to her to follow him totally paralyzed her mind as like thunderbolt falling on her head.

Meanwhile, Prakash moves towards Meera's room with the confidence that Meera would follow him. However, contrary to his expectation, Meera stood at the same place regardless of his comment. Her presence and voices always made him only feel pure anger and hatred for her. To be so, now her ignorance towards him provoked his anger further and made him stride towards her fumingly and held her hand and tried to drag her towards her room mercilessly.

As the result of his merciless action, Meera lost her balance and fell down on the stairs. Due to her sudden fall, a sharp stabbing pain began to spread across her left leg. However, regardless of her condition, Prakash dragged her forcely to her room.

Meera yelped out in the pain as the result of prakash harsh handling. But, prakash didn't show any pity to meera and gave more importance to drag her to her room. However, at one point, meera cried out in pain unable to tolerate her leg pain,

"Prakash.. My leg is paining. Ahaa.. Please leave me. Please stop dragging me. I will walk by myself. Pl.  Ahaa.."

Before meera could complete her sentence, prakash dragged her into the room and pushed her harshly against the wall. Meera screamed in the pain when her back hardly hit on the wall. Meera slid down on the wall in excruciating pain and curled up on the floor in pain and looked at Prakash with pain-filled eyes.

Ignoring tears and pain in her eyes, as if nothing had happened, he casually sat down on the bed and mocked her,

" Oh meera. I know how great an actress you are. So, you don't need to show your marvelous performance in front of me. Come on.. Stop it and get up now. You already know that I am getting late to the office. Sorry to say, but really I don't have much time to watch your disgusting performance. So, get up and come here to me quickly. "

Despite the sarcasm in Prakash's words, the certainty in his words made Meera understand very well that he wouldn't leave her alone if she didn't get up.

However, she couldn't get up as he said, the pain in her leg stopped her from getting up. But, still she tried to get up ignoring her leg pain and the numbness she felt on her foot. But, no matter how hard she tried, all her efforts ended in failure.  Therefore, after countless admits she accepted her defeat and looked at Prakash for his pity with a withered face not knowing what to do.

However, Prakash did not believe in any of her efforts and was adamant in his belief that she was acting. Therefore, he stormed towards her fiercely and grabbed her hand and shouted,

"YOU BIT*H. STOP YOUR ACTING AND GET UP."

Chapter 10

Even though prakash grabbed her hand in anger, it helped meera to get up. Meera slowly got up from the floor by holding his hand tightly. Although she stood up with the help of prakash, she wasn't able to put down her right leg on the floor, because of the pain. Therefore, she stood with the help of her left leg and asked prakash in a broken tone as her tear filled gaze fixed on him,

" Prakash, I agree that I deceived you before. That doesn't mean that I will do it every time. Can't you forget it and forgive me ?."

Meera's words brought back the memories of her betrayals before his eyes. Memories of her betrayal made his eyes redden with anger. As the result of her words fueled up his anger to an extreme level, he threw away her hand and strangled her neck in vexation. Never before, he had lost his control like this. He was not able to constrain it when she admitted all her evildoings and asked him to forgive it as if her mistake was not a big thing.

Meera, who did not expect prakash would react like this, widened her eyes in the shock and tried to remove prakash grip from her neck as she moved backwards without having strength to stand at same place. As the seconds passed his tightening strength on her neck begin to increase and it made her to suffocate for air. Her whole face was ashen, both her eyes went upward as the result of unable to breath. Tears flow out from her eyes like a waterfall, in the way showing her weakness and pain. Meera accepted her defeat and gave up her try to remove his grip from her neck with the confirmation that no one will save her from prakash fury today.

Seeing meera struggling to catch up her breath, prakash smirked and began to burn her heart with his hateful words as he loosened his grip on her neck,

" You whore.. What did you say just now ?. You want me to forget everything and accept a bitch like you as my wife, right ?. How can you talk like this after destroying all my dreams and wishes as if nothing happened. Don't you feel disgusted when you say that ?. I just don't understand why you are pretending to be a depressed and broken person when I am around you. However, behind my absence, you are happily talking with others and being happy with a smile on your face. Why do you put on such an act when I am there ?.”

Meera shook her head and tried to say that she wasn't doing any drama but she couldn't say anything as her mouth dried up as the result of Prakash's attempt to strangle Meera's neck. However, prakash didn't give importance to notice her effort to say something or to see truth in her eyes. Again he intensified in hurt her using his words like a thorn,

" See.. Even this morning I believed in your extraordinary performance. Shit !!. What a fool I have been ?. Even now I can't erase your fabulous performance from my mind. How beautifully you act like you can't live without keerthi. I had little hope that you truly love keerthi. That little hope made me confused whether my decision to separate keerthi from you was right or wrong. But, today you completely collapsed that hope by exposing your real face. It was only today after watching you talking with kalpana happily, I understand that whatever you did today is also one of your plays. Truth to be told, there is no point in blaming you for this. Actually, I should appreciate you for your fabulous performance. I am the one who is wrong here. Even after you deceived me countless times, it was my fault for believing you again and again."

Meera knows that no matter how many times she apologizes to Prakash, it will not make up for her mistakes. She should have told Prakash all about her past life but she didn't do it. She hid everything and married him. As a result of it, she is not only getting hurt, but also she is hurting prakash and keerthi because of her selfishness.

After hearing Prakash saying that he had trusted her a little and even he doubted whether his decision was right or not, a little hope and joy sprouted on Meera's heart that if he had a little faith in her means, then definitely she would have a chance to change his decision too. Therefore, with this thought she slowly moved her frightened weak hand towards his face and touched his face softly as she added,

" Prakash, just because I hid my past and married you doesn't mean I would always cheat you. Try to understand my situation. I did not do anything intentionally. My situation led me to do everything. Please prakash. Give me one chance. I will be a good mother to keerthi and good wife to you. Believe me prakash. I really love you and keerthi. I can't live with you or ke.."

Prakash's fury roared up even more when he saw Meera pretending to be innocent and trying to deceive him again and again with her words. Prakash shut his eyes in rage not want to see her disgusting face and shouted fiercely,

" SHUT UP, YOU BIT*H. I DON'T WANT TO HEAR A WORD FROM YOUR DIRTY MOUTH."

Prakash shouting made Meera's body tremble in fear. In fear, she quickly took back her hand from his cheek and looked at him with a frightened expression on her face. She understood that she had provoked his rant again because of her words or her action. She stood still while looking at him in dread of what he was going to do in his anger.