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Author pen name : Esora05

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First of all, thank you for giving this story a chance. "My Love..(Unwanted Wife)" is my first story.

I have all the rights reserved for this book as it solely belongs to me.

This book and the concept of "My Love..(Unwanted Wife)" is purely my imagination.

All the characters, scenes, names..etc are purely my imagination. If it matches with any other story or in real life, it's a pure coincidence.

This book contains mature content and language thus it does not mean that the author supports.

This book contains violence against women and body shaming scenes thus it does not mean that the author supports.

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Introduction

Meet Varun, 23 years old from a middle class family  living in Coimbatore, TamilNadu. Working as an engineer in public work departments of tamilnadu. Love his parents very much and he has one younger sister, who is studying engineering.

Meet Rosie, 23 years old from a middle class family from coimbatore, but now living in Ooty. Working in a small construction company  as a design engineer. In love with Varun even after knowing his hate.

Chapter 1

Rosie pov,

As the sun set, the darkness began to obscure the brightness of the sky. Today I got a new project to work as a designer due to my constant effort and hard work for the past one and a half years. This afternoon, the CEO of the company where I'm working, informed me to present my work in front of investors. After presenting the project, I left the office quite lately.

As I was walking, I pulled my sweater over my chest and hugged myself to avoid shivering, which is caused due to the heavy cold. Although chillness makes me freeze, I still love it. That's why I chose to come ooty. Actually, it's my dream to stay in ooty with Varun. I always dreamed of having a family with Varun. We all know that sometimes our dreams are just out of our reach, yet we don't give up on our desire to dream. Because, it gives us happiness and hope to live our life. Even if it is fake, it gives us hope to live our life.

After 15 minutes of walking, I reached near the hostel where I am staying currently, leaving my family and friends.

I don't want to see anyone from my past life, especially my friends, it only reminds him. I don't want him to know about my whereabouts. I wish not to see him until the last breath of my life. My presence only makes him lose his happiness. I have only given him pain. Not only for him, I have only given pain to everyone who cares and loves me. No one lived happily because of me. I made everyone suffer. Maybe that's why God has made me live alone for the sin I have committed. I deserve to be alone. I only deserve pain.

" It means you are not going to see him again. Right ?. Then, why are you stalking his Instagram and Facebook account daily. " My mind questioned me.

Yes, I can't even pass a single minute without thinking or seeing him, that's why I stalked his Instagram and Facebook account to know about his life. My phone gallery is filled with his pictures. My day starts and ends after viewing his picture. My heart is crazily in love with him. He is the ruler of my heart. For his love, I did everything. Even after knowing, it will hurt my family.

" Are you regretting now ? " My mind enquired me again.

No, I don't regret it.

I did it for my love.

For my love, I forcibly married him.

I came out of my thoughts by hearing priya call behind me,

" Rose.. Rose.."

Hearing her voice, I turned and looked at her, who was running towards me. She came near me and held out the room key in front of me as she added,

" Here, keep this key. I'm going out with my friends."

I just shook my head in the way to reply to her and took the key from her hand. After getting the room key, I turned to move away. Before I could move away from there, her voice rang in my ear again.

" Would you like to come with me ?."

Hearing priya invite, I turned and looked at her in amazement. No matter how harshly I talked to her, still she was maintaining friendly conversation with me. She is my roommate. We both are sharing the same room. Actually, she is a good and friendly type. She would always try to speak with me in a friendly way. But, I only reply to her with one word. Because, I don't want to mingle with anyone. I was born to live alone because of my selfishness. I snapped out of my thoughts and blinked my eyes by hearing priya teasing,

" Oyee, rose. Again, you have gone to dreamworld."

I didn't return the smile back to priya who was looking at me with a smiling face. For her teasing, I replied to her in a plain tone and went to my hostel room without waiting for her reply.

" No. I am not coming."

After entering my hostel room, I washed my face and planned to take a little nap before dinner.

~ Ring ~ Ring ~

Hearing the ringtone of my mobile phone, I got up from the bed and took the mobile from the night stand. A confusion spread across my face, seeing a call from a private number. No one from my past life knows this number. Then, who could be it !. Regardless of my suspicion, I attended the phone call and enquired in a curious tone, while thinking who it was.

" Hello. Who is this?."

I covered my mouth with my hand in a shock, hearing the reply from the other side of the phone,

" Come outside, I want to talk to you."

No. It can't be him. How did he get my number ?. What he wants to talk to me now ?. Already I signed divorce papers, then what he wants to discuss with me now ?. Hearing the phone call disconnecting sound, I took the phone from my ear and looked at the display of the phone. It's not a varun number. However, the voice on the phone was the same as Varun's.

Maybe his marriage is fixed. Therefore, he came to invite me to his wedding.

" Idiot. He hates you. Then, why should he have to invite you to his wedding ?. Did you forget how much he detests you ?". My mind mocked me.

Yes. That's correct. He hates me. Then, why did he come here to meet me ?.

After closing my room door, I began to walk downstairs to see him. As I was walking in the corridor, bhami akka (sister) called me,

" Rosie. Rosie."

" Yes.. Why did you call me" I asked her a little rudely as the result of my dislike towards her.

" Rosie, actually today I went to the hospital again for my fertility treatment. Do you know what they said ?. They asked me to reduce my weight. You already know that I'm in perfect shape. There is no need for me to reduce weight. However, the doctor is still advising me to reduce some more weight to conceive a child. Even for me, this situation means think about you Rosie ?. Your thick body itself exposes how obese you are. Try to reduce your weight, rosie. I'm saying it for your good. Then, only you will get the chance to marry."

After saying it, she went inside her room without waiting for my reply.

What's her problem if I'm looking fat ?. Yeah. What you are thinking is correct. I'm a fatty girl. I'm a girl with 80 kg weight with fair skin tone. Maybe that's why Varun doesn't like me. Here I'm looking like an ugly duckling, but he looks like a model who came out of a magazine. Compared to him, I'm zero.

~ Ring ~ Ring ~

I looked at my phone, hearing the phone ringtone. Again I'm getting a call from the same private number. It means him. Let's go and see why he came here suddenly. With this thought, I sighed and cut the phone call.

After reaching near the hostel gate, I searched for him. Where is he ?. Except the watchman, no one is here. Maybe it's some frank call. I misunderstood it as him. Why should he want to meet me !!. Again, I start to day-dream like a fool. Anyway, let's go to the room instead of wasting time here.

With these thoughts, I decided to go back to the hostel. However, suddenly, someone held my hand and pulled me towards them. Due to a sudden pull, my back landed on that person's chest. I was taken aback and shuddered by sensing his fragrance. It's him. My varun. My love. He made me face him and asked me in a harsh tone.

" Where are you going ?."

Due to our closeness, I can feel his hot breath on my face. Why was he standing too closely ?. I know he hates my touch. I heard his voice again as I was in a confused state whether what I was seeing was a dream or not.

" Where are you going ?."

" ho..ho..hostel " I replied to him with a stutter.

" Oh !!. But, who told you to go back to the hostel ?.. Didn't I ask you to come outside ?. Anyway, come. Let's go."

After saying it, he begins to walk while dragging me with him. I tried to remove my hand from his grip. But, no use. He held my hand tightly in his grip. Where was he taking me ?. This time, I did nothing. After 2 years, now only I'm seeing him directly, then what did I do now ?. I have to ask him. Yeah, Ask rosie.

" Va..va..varun." I called him with a hesitation..

However, regardless of my call, he continued walking while dragging me with him. What is he doing ?. Can't he hear that I'm calling him !!.

" VARUN " This time I called him a little loudly.

He paused his walk and turned and looked at him with an irritation and questioned me in a rough tone,

" What ?. "

" Where are you taking me ?." I asked him in a low tone.

" My home." He answered me in a hard tone.

His home ?. But, why ??. Already his family hates me more than anything. Then, why is he taking me there ?.

" Hello madam. Don't start to dream. First, tell me what's your name." He asked me in a formal tone..

I was shocked why he was asking my name. He doesn't even remember my name. I was confused. What's happening here !.

" Hello.. I am asking you. What's your name ?" He again asked me impatiently.

" Ro..Rosie".. I replied to him in a hesitant tone.

" You mean Mrs.Rosie Varun ?." He asked me with a smirk.

" What !!. No. We are divorced. So, my name is Rosie now. Only rosie." I replied him with swither.

" Who told you that we are divorced." He asked me with the same smirk.

" But, I signed divorce paper before coming here. Then, how can we not be divorced yet ?. Don't you submit it to the court ?." I told and asked him with confusion.

" DON'T DARE TO ASK ME THIS QUESTION, GUNDU (fatty)."

Suddenly, he raised his voice and started to shout in a harsh tone..

" WHAT ARE YOU THINKING ?. I AM HERE TO TALK YOU LOVELY. DON'T EVEN DREAM ABOUT IT. I JUST HATE YOU. WHENEVER I SEE YOU, I JUST WISH TO KILL YOU. YOU SPOILED MY LIFE. JUST BECAUSE OF THAT STUPID DIVORCE, I AM HERE. BEFORE GETTING DIVORCE WE HAVE TO LIVE IN SAME HOUSE FOR 6 MONTH. THEN ONLY WE CAN GET DIVORCE. DON'T YOU KNOW THAT ?. JUST COME WITH ME. STAY IN MY HOUSE LIKE A DUST FOR 6 MONTH. DO YOU UNDERSTAND IT ?."

" Ye..Yesss " I replied to him with a stutter.

Again. Again. His words rang in my ears.

GUNDU. GUNDU.

Chapter 2

Rosie pov,

"Lets go" He said and started to walk.

After reaching near the car, he opened the front door of the car and forced me to sit on the passenger seat of the car forcibly.

Ugh !!. My bag. It's in my hostel room. Nothing much in that bag, just some of my old clothes which I took with me when I came to ooty.

I saw him get into the car through the driver's seat. Ask rosie. Ask him about the bag. Rosie, Be confident and ask him boldly. I motivated myself and called him in a low tone,

"Va.. Varun."

"What ?." He asked me with irritation.

"My bag is in the hostel. My dresses are in that bag. Shall I go and take it ?" I asked him in a soft tone.

He thinked for some time and replied in a hard tone,

" Yeah, go and bring it soon. I don't want to spend my money on useless things like you."

It would be a complete lie If I say his words didn't hurt me. It hurts a lot. Unknowingly, my tears start to flow. He shouldn't see my tears. I tried to hold back my tears, thinking that I should not show my weakness in front of him. More I try to control my tears, the more it starts to flow constantly. I have to get down from this damn car.

I got out of his car and started to go to the hostel to get my bag while wiping my tears. All this time, I don't even look at his side. If I look at him, then surely I will break down even more. Anyway, my tears aren't going to change his heart which is already overflowing with hate for me.

After entering the hostel room, I start to pack my dress and other necessary things. Within 5 minutes, I packed everything. I took the bag in my hand and walked out of the hostel room and locked the hostel room.

When I was about to walk out of the hostel, I remembered that I had to handover the room key to the hostel warden. Therefore, I went to see the hostel warden and informed her that I am vacating and also handed over her hostel key to her.

After finishing hostel vacating formalities, I reached near the car and heard his voice, who was talking with his mother on the phone.

"Yes mom. I understand. I know you guys also hate her. But, what can I do ?. To obtain divorce, I have to do this. Yeah.. Don't worry, mom. I know how to handle her..  Yeah, after 6 months we don't need to see her useless ugly face. Mm.. okay Mom.. bye."

After listening to his words, I don't have the strength to walk anymore. I sat on the pavement and started to cry as much as I wanted.

It's okay rosie. It's okay rosie. Don't cry. Be confident. You already know he hates you, then why are you taking his words seriously ?. Leave it.. You are going to stay with him for just 6 months. After that, you can come back here. Stand up. Try to smile rosie. After controlling my emotions and tears, I went near his car and got into the car through the back seat and stared outside because I don't want to see him. It's not mean that I hate him. I just don't want to see his hate.

As I was immersed in my inner thoughts, I heard his voice.

" Gundu, come and sit in front."

Whenever he calls me gundu, it hurts me so much. Anyway, I knew very well that he was using the word "gundu" just to hurt me.

"N..no. It's okay, I will sit here." I replied to him.

After giving me "an angry look", he got out of the car and came and sat near me on the back seat of the car. Why is he sitting in the back seat of the car !!. Then, who will drive the car !!.

While I'm thinking busily who would drive the car, I felt his hand around my waist. He pulled me to his side before I could react or look back at him.

I tried to move out from his grip, but his grip around my waist was very strong. While I was trying to get out of his grip, Suddenly he lifted my chin and kissed my lips and tried to enter his tongue inside my lips but I didn't open my lips. I was totally shocked by his unexpected move. I was sitting there like a statue.

He roamed his hands over my neck, bosoms and wherever his hand touched. I shivered in his slow yet killing touch. I gasped when he pinched my waist. He used it as an opportunity and entered his tongue inside my lip and kissed me roughly. I felt like it was a punishment not a kiss.. I didn't kiss him back. I sit there like a statue. Let him do whatever he wants to do.

I began to feel suffocate due to lack of oxygen, after noticing my difficulty in breathing, he left my lips.

He stared at me with a smirk while rubbing his thumb on my quivering lower lip and said,

"Come and sit in the front seat. Otherwise, I don't know what I will do. You know what I meant.. If I start it now then I won't stop until you beg me."

"ENOUGH.. I can't listen to it anymore." I screamed in my mind.

"Stop.. Stop.. I will come." I replied to him and hurriedly settled in the front seat.

I stared outside and thinked why he kissed me. I knew very well that he hated me, then why he suddenly kissed me. It's our first kiss. In college, whenever we made love, I tried to kiss him but he never let me do it.

One day I asked him, " Why is he not kissing me while we are doing it ?."

For that, he replied in harsh tone " He will kiss only his real wife, not some ugly bit*h like me."

After hearing his words, I understood that he is just using me to fulfill his lust and at the same time he is punishing me in a sexual way for the mistake I had made.

After that, I don't expect anything from him. Whenever he calls me, I will go to his room and allow him to fulfill his lust. For me, my husband is making love to me. But, for him, I am bit*h who he is using to release his lust.

Again the same doubt arises in my mind. Why did he kiss me today all of sudden !!. Don't raise your hope rosie. Atlast you only get hurt. While thinking about all this, sleepiness covered my eyes. As a result, I fell asleep. Only sleep can make you forget everything. So, I love to sleep, it makes me forget every pain which I am going through in my life.

Chapter 3

Rosie pov,

"Hey Gundu.. Get up.. Hey gundu.. Get up"

I hear someone's voice near me. Who is that ?. It sounds like Varun's voice. Why is he disturbing my sweet sleep !!.

"HEY GUNDU. GET UP NOW."

I opened my eyes as a result someone shouted near me and looked around me in shock while wiping my drool. Why am I in the car ?. Whose car is this ?. As I was wondering where I'm now, I saw his face.

My love.

My varun is hovering his face over mine.

He pecked my lips and told me in a soft tone,

"Come inside quickly."

And then, he went inside his house without waiting for me.

That's when reality banged on my mind. My mind rewinds all the memories of whatever happened 3 hours ago. Maybe this is his home. It's a beautiful home with a garden. I like his home. I miss my home and family.

Sorry appa (father), amma (mother) and anna (brother). Forgive this stupid.

After taking my bag from the car, I began to go to his home. As I was walking, only thought eroded  my mind constantly. Will his mother allow me to enter their home or tell me to sleep outside ?.

By shaking my head, I pushed away my thoughts and reached the front door. I was waiting for someone to call me inside but no one was there. I don't see anyone inside or outside the house.

Can I enter the house without asking permission !!. What if they chase me out. Oh my god !!.  What to do now ?.  Let's wait outside.. Yes.. Let's wait.

As I was waiting outside, the night time cold breeze constantly brushed and passed me smoothly. And, at the same time the fragrance of flowers which are waiting to bloom spreads happiness in my heart. Past one hour, I was waiting outside by sitting in front of his house while admiring his garden. One hour has passed, yet no one asked me to come inside the house. Is he staying alone in his house ?. What to do !!. Let's go back to Ooty. But, what will I say to him If he asks me why I left his house without informing him. I know very well about his anger. If I go from here without informing him, then surely he will kill me. Yeah. That's for sure. It's better to wait here than to die in his hands.

All of Sudden, all the light went off and darkness enveloped around me. God !!.. Why are the lights suddenly turned off ?. I searched my mobile in darkness with fear. As I was searching my mobile around me in darkness, I heard a voice near me.

"What are you doing here ?."

"Ahaa !!. God !!. Save me."

I shouted and placed my hand on my chest and closed my eyes tightly in fear. Did he bring me to a ghost house to kill me ?. I tightly closed my eyes and start to murmur myself,

"Jesus save me. Jesus save me."

As I was praying in fear, I heard a laughing sound near me. While hearing a laughing sound, I opened my eyes halfly and saw the light come back on. I opened my eyes fully and turned to see who. It's Varun.

Noticing my stare, he looked at me with teasing smile and asked,

"What are you doing here ?."

Before I could reply anything, he told me again,

"Anyway, come. Let's go."

He held my hand and dragged me to his home. Actually it's a two storey building. Ground floor had a hall, 2 bedrooms, dining hall and kitchen. And the first floor had one bedroom and a hall. Before seeing his house fully, we reached inside his room. Wow.. His bedroom looks beautiful with fantastic interior design. His room looked as beautiful as I liked. His bedroom contains a queen size bed with a nightstand on both sides , a sofa set, a vanity set, three layer wardrobe and also the study table near to the door. I really like his room a lot.

"Can you tell me single things which you don't like about him ?." My mind whispered to me.

My varun is perfect in everything. If we truly love someone, then none of their flaws are visible to our eyes. Even their flaws look beautiful to us.

Anyway, why am I in his bedroom ?. Is he not going to give me a separate bedroom ?. What will I do ?. Where will I sleep ?. Of Course he doesn't allow me to sleep in his bed. And also it's a queen size bed. So it will be difficult for both of us to sleep comfortably without touching each other.

After thinking for a few minutes I came to a conclusion. Let's sleep on the floor. Yepp !!. Let's ask him for a bedsheet and pillow !!. After 6 months, I can sleep in bed. Yeah !!.. It's a perfect idea. Let's ask him. But, where is he ?.

Just when I thought where he was, I came out of my thoughts and saw him, who was already laying in the bed and looking at me with a smirk.

"Va.. Varun." I called him in a soft tone.

"Yeah." He replied to me in a casual tone.

"Can you give me a bedsheet and pillow ?" I asked him with a smile.

After thinking for a few seconds, he nodded and said with a grin.

"Okay. Close the door and come here. I will give it to you."

"Okay."  I replied with a smile.

After keeping my bag near the sofa, I went to close the door. After locking the door, I went near him. He just looked at me with some unknown emotions.

"Let him look at you with whatever emotion. You just get a bedsheet and go to sleep." My mind reminded me.

"Varun.. Bedsheet " I asked him as I approached him.

"Yeah.. I forgot. Here, take it." He extended his hand to give me a bedsheet, I moved towards him a little closer to get it from him.

*Mature content warning*

Instead of giving me a bedsheet, he grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him. Due to a sudden spasm, I landed above him. In a swift second, he made me lay on the bed and hovered over me.

I was under his body by the time I thought about what happened here. I tried to get up but he was not ready to move even an inch.

"Varun.. Leave me, what are you doing ?." I asked him as I tried to get up.

"What am I doing ?. You will know and feel when I am doing it." He replied in a husky voice.

Before I could process his words, he captured my lips with his and kissed me passionately. It was a sweet yet alluring kiss. I felt like he was conveying his love through kisses. I also kissed him back with the same passion. Within a second, he removed my clothes and his. Before I could come out from the pleasure of his kiss, he entered inside me and stayed still without moving and hugged me tightly in the way there was no gap between us. He stroked my hair and tenderly kissed me on my lips and then whispered in my ears

" I miss you, gundu. I miss your lovely body."

When I heard his words, I felt alive again. I felt like I had reasons to live my life again. I felt my heart beating faster again after tired of so many disappointments. I carved so much for his love. I carved to see his smile. I carved to see his glare. I carved to see this smirk. I carved for his touch. I carved to hug him tightly. Now I got it. I got his love after so many hurts, insults and pains. Again, I am ready to endure all pain for his love.

I felt like I wanted to shout and tell the whole world my varun missed me. Yeah.. Maybe my varun is in love with me. Varun Rosie. It's enough for me. His love is enough for me.

As I was moaning his name again and again, he continued his attack on my body. In each thrust, I felt my toes curl up in pleasure. After our first round, he increased his speed. Slowly pleasure begins to fade and pain starts to rule over my body. I felt unbearable pain  due to his each violent thrust. So I tried to move away from his grip, but he locked me under his body with his tight grips on my both hips. He continued his pace further without minding my pain.

"Varun. Please slow down. It's hurting." I said with a whimper.

"What it's pain !!.. What you did to me is more painful than this." He said in an angry tone.

That's it. Again he broke my heart. How many times will he break my heart ?. He is just trying to hurt me using this. That's all. No love. Nothing. It's his way of giving punishment. After that, I didn't try to stop him. I cried silently for my stupidity. Let him do whatever he wants. But, suddenly he slowed down his pace and thrust slowly with care. He leaned towards my face and kissed all over my face. And also he kissed my tears and said in a soft tone,

"Don't cry Gundu."

I know. Again he was trying to break my heart by giving little hope. So I didn't reply to him. Just cried silently. After a few rounds, he left my body and lay beside me. Everything was over. I tried to get up from the bed but he hugged me tightly and snuggled his face on the nape of my neck and told me in a hard tone,

*Mature content over*

"You have to sleep in this bed with me for 6 months. It's your punishment for destroying my life. Do you understand gundu ?." I nodded and cried silently.

After a few minutes, I fell asleep in exhaustion. Before falling into deep slumber, I heard his voice,

"Love you pondati (wife)."

And I felt kiss on my forehead. Again I'm thinking something  stupidly maybe it's some dream.

Chapter 4

Rosie pov,

Ring... Ring..

Hearing my phone ringtone, I woke up and tried to get up from the bed. Because of body pain, I get up from bed with difficulty.

Varun. Is he an animal ?. What he did to my body. Everywhere full of his bite marks. What to do with him ?. Why was he behaving like this ?. He hates me na ?. Then, why is he touching me ?. Even forcing me to sleep in this small bed. Damn bed. I couldn't even turn while sleeping. Everything is confusing as hell. Let's leave that topic and attend the phone call. Call from the office. What will I tell them ?.

After picking up the call, I answered in a meek tone,

"Hello sir.. Good morning"

"Good morning dear. Why don't you come to the office ?. Is everything okay ?." Sir asked me from the other side of the phone.

"Sir.. Actually due to some problem, I came to my hometown. Can you give me 6 months leave ?. After that, I will come back and continue my work. Please sir, it's urgent."

As I was talking on the phone, unexpectedly Varun snatched the phone from my hand. He is standing in front of me wearing only a towel around his waist. Water droplets are still in his hair and body. Oh !!.. Did he come directly from the bathroom after his bath without even drying his body !!.. I blushed like a fool after seeing him in a towel. Even though we did it several times, I still couldn't control the redness which was spreading around my cheek.

"Rosie. Don't drool over him. Control." My mind warns me.

Yes.. I should control myself. What was he talking with sir ?. With this thinking, I start to focus on his talking.

"Yeah uncle, everything is fine. No.. She didn't come back. Yeah.. I will send her resignation letter through mail. Okay uncle. Bye."

After saying all this, he cut the phone call without minding my protest.

I was hell shocked. When sir became this uncle ?. Why is he doing this ?. Where will I get another job ?. What will I do after 6 months ?.  Without a job, how will I pay my hostel rent ?.  After facing so many struggles, I got this job. While thinking about all the problems I faced in the last 2 years. I got angry. Who gives rights to him to do this !!.

"VARUN.. WHY YOU DID THIS ?. AFTER 6 MONTH, WHAT WILL I DO ?. HOW AND WHERE I WILL GET ANOTHER JOB EVEN WITHOUT DEGREE ?. DO KNOW HOW I GET THIS JOB AFTER FACING SO MUCH STRUGGLES ?. I LOVED YOU TRULY FOR THAT I DID MANY MISTAKES. I KNOW WHAT I DID IS WRONG. BUT, I DID IT FOR MY LOVE. PLEASE FORGIVE ME. I WILL NOT BE A BURDEN IN YOUR LIFE ANYMORE. AFTER GETTING DIVORCE, I WILL GO FROM HERE. PLEASE DON'T BREAK ME ANYMORE. PLEASE." I shouted furiously and cried.

*Mature Content Warning*

While fixing his gaze on me, he moved towards me and sat in the bed near to me.

Did I over react ?. Is he going to beat me ?. I looked down and gulped the thump formed on my throat.

He held my chin and made me look at him. Then, he pulled my chin towards his face and commanded in a playful tone,

"Let's see how much you love me."

Before processing his words, he removed the bedsheet which was covering my body and pushed me on the bed. l lay down on the bed nakedly due to his push. Even though we had sex many times, he still didn't see me naked. I didn't want to see disgust in his eyes. So I closed my eyes. I loathe myself. I know he will mock me after seeing my body. I felt his touch on my thighs. He separates my thighs using his and extends it widely.

I know what he is planning to do. What did I tell him ?. What is he doing now ?. Is he  psycho ?. Why was he behaving like this ?.

Then, suddenly he pulled me towards him, keeping one hand on my back and the other hand on the back side of my neck. In shock, I opened my eyes and saw our position. I was sitting on his lap and my legs were placed around his hip. He pulled me up a little and entered inside me in a swift motion. I gasped and bit my lower lip to control my moan. Abruptly, he told me,

" Hug me tightly, gundu. I want to feel your warmth very close to me."

I hugged him like he told me and placed my head on his chest. He also hugged me tightly and bites on my shoulder and told,

"Rosie. Remember this always. You are only mine. Your body, Your soul, Your love, Your everything only belongs to me."

After saying it, he started to move roughly. And at the same time, he constantly kissed and licked my shoulder where he bit me a while ago. After three rounds, he laid above me and hugged me tightly while staying inside me. At that moment, I was trying to catch my breath hustlingly. Is he planning to kill me ?.

"Gundu.. Gundu.." He called me in a soft tone.

I didn't reply to him anything and shifted my glance to the other side to avoid his stare. Why is he still not moving away from my body !!. Is he thinking of doing it again !!.

Out of the blue, he called me "Mrs.varun."

Hearing his acknowledgement of our relationship, I was totally stunned and glanced at his eyes with tear filled eyes. But, he pecked my lips and kissed my wedding chain (which is lying around my neck) asked me in a soft tone,

" For the last 2 years, you believed that we were divorced. Then, why are you still wearing mangalyam ( wedding chain) ?."

I don't know what to reply to him. After knowing we are divorced, I wasn't able to take off my wedding chain because it's my identity as a married woman. Only thing which I have as his memories is my wedding chain. How can I remove it ?. My thoughts were pushed away by his voice again,

"Gundu.. You are Christian. Then, why did you select a Hindu wedding chain ?. Anyway, we are going to divorce in 6 months. So, what's the use of wearing it anymore ?. Quickly remove it and give it to me."

Without having the patience to listen to my words, he tried to remove the wedding chain from my neck.

"Varun.. Please stop.. Please don't remove it. I'm begging you, let me wear it. Please." I  told him with tear filled eyes and tried to remove his hand from my wedding chain.

How can I remove it ?. It's the only thing which connects him with me. It's mine. I will wear it up to my last breath. He can't take it away from me. Yes.. I was born and brought up in Christian family. But, I fell in love with Varun who was from hindu family. So, I brought my wedding chain and got married to him in hindu traditional way, because I don't want him to change. I want him to be the way he was. But, he is thinking my love is my selfishness and foolishness. According to him, I did everything due to my possessiveness and stubbornness.

"Ssh.. Ssh.. Gundu.. Don't cry.. Okay.. I'm not removing it. Okay." He told and removed his hand from the wedding chain.

I just nodded and tried to control my tears..

"Gundu, listen to me, you have to follow some rules here." He said in a strict tone.

Rules ah !!. What may it be ?. Anyway, he was finding some more excuses to punish me further.

"When I'm talking with you, look at my eyes. Don't bow your head like a child. Okay."

Aftet saying it, he just laughed and kissed my lips and told me with a smile,

"You're looking cute."

I blushed hard and stared at him like an "Aww" expression. Is it true !!. He called me cute. Woah !!.. Am I dreaming !!. My thoughts were cut away by his voice,

"1. You have to call me sir. Mainly in front of my parents.

2. You have to do all the household chores like Cooking, Cleaning.

3. You have to respect my parents. And if they ask you to do something, then you have to do it without complaining. Mainly call my parents as madam and sir.

4. If anyone asks, who are you and why are you staying here, then just tell them you are a maid who is going to work here for the next 6 months.

5.Mainly before night 10 o'clock you have to come to our room after finishing all work and you have to wake up before 6 o'clock in morning and do all the household work.

6. Don't forget to take pills whenever we do sex. I don't want to carry any other responsibility now.

Do you understand ?. If you dare to disobey any rules, then your punishment will be severe."

I just nodded to reply to him.

After hearing all this, I just want to cry. I want to be alone. I want to go far away from him. I don't want to be an unwanted thing in his home. He was planning to treat me like a maid. Why again and again is he breaking my heart ?. After whatever happened in the morning, I thought maybe he is trying to give a chance to our relationship. But, What I think is wrong. He is thinking about how to punish me again and again.

~ Knock ~ Knock ~

All of sudden, we heard a knocking sound. After  hearing knocking sound, I laid on the bed numbly with the thought what will I do if anyone see us like this. Therefore, I tried to push him away and whispered,

" Varun, leave me."

"Gundu don't move, see again you make me hard." He whispered back and started his move slowly. I was biting my lower lip hard to control my moan.

"Anna (Brother), Come and have breakfast. Amma (mother) called you." Someone shouted from outside. It's manju's voice. His sister.

"Okay.. You go.. I will come." He shouted back while continuing his torture on my body. With one last thrust, he left my body forcibly. I stared at him with widened eyes. He looked at me with a smirk and got up from bed nakedly.l. Without having a little bit of shame, he started to dress up in front of me. I blushed and moved my glance to the other side.

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" Blushing !!. Unbelievable !!. After hearing all his rules, you're still blushing like a fool. Idiot.. He is thinking of you as a maid. I can't believe it." My mind mocked  me.

"Gundu.. Get ready soon and come downstairs and don't forget to hide those hickeys" He told me with a wink and started to go downstairs.

Oh God !!. How I am going to get up from this bed !!. My whole body is hurting like hell. I can't even move my legs. While biting my lower lip, I tried to get up.

As I was trying to get up, in a flash second, I was in the air. How !!. Then, only I noticed Varun carrying me to the bathroom. How he was carrying me coolly like this. Oh god !!. I will break his hand.

Therefore, I told him in low voice,

"Leave me, I can walk."

Without replying to anything, he just carried me to the bathroom. After making me stand near the shower, he told me in a normal tone.

" Take a bath in warm water and come downstairs soon."

I just nodded as a way to reply to him.

After taking a bath in warm water, I felt a little relaxed and my body pain started to subside. Now I can walk without wincing in pain. But, why did he carry me ?. Anyway I have to thank him. I would not have reached the bathroom with this pain if he had not helped me.

"Did you forget it ?. He only caused you this pain." My mind mocked me as usual.

I blushed as I remembered our intimacy which happened last night and this morning. After suppressing my emotions, I got out of the bathroom and got ready to go downstairs.

Chapter 5

Rosie pov,

After dressing up in saree, I started to go downstairs. As I was about to reach the last step of the staircase, I heard his mom's voice.

"Where is she ?.  Still sleeping ?. What is she thinking ?. I know how those types of girls are. Characterless girl. Her parents don't teach any good things, that's why she did all those things to my son. Because of her mannerless behavior, I was not able to hold a wedding for you. Many good families are asking your hand for their very educated and beautiful daughters. Still I wasn't able to do anything. All this happened because of her. Varun.. Speak with advocates once again. Try to get divorce as soon as possible, I don't want to keep a characterless girl like her in my home."

Varun nodded and replied like an obedient boy,

"Okay mom. I will do as you say. Don't get angry. I will manage everything. You don't need to worry about her."

Oh !!.. That's what they are thinking about me. CHARACTERLESS GIRL. How lowly his mom thinks about me, he is not even ready to support me. Just listening to his mom's words silently.

"Why should he support you ?. Don't you know he hates you ?." My mind reminds me.

Yeah.. How can I forget it ?. He hates me. He only brought me here to get divorce and to fulfill his lust. Again.. Again.. He showed me how much he hates my presence. It's okay Rosie. Cheer up.. You have to manage everything for only 6 months. Then, you can go from here.

Sometimes everything we do for our love ends up as a mistake in other's perspective. We will not stop doing it even if we know it is wrong in front of other's perspective because we are doing it for our love. My thoughts were pushed away due to his father's voice,

"Malar don't talk like this. She is also like our daughter. Don't hate her for the small mistake she made."

While hearing it, fresh tears slipped out from my eyes. My father also likes him. Will always support me and would say to mom "Don't scold me".

That day also he believed me and told everyone confidently,

"My daughter would never do anything like that."

And he asked me to tell everyone that they all misunderstood me. But, I stood there like a statue while bowing my head because everything they said is true, I did it.

How can I say to my father that I did everything for my love ?. How can I tell my father and make him understand my love when Varun, who knows the depth and intensity of my love, is not ready to accept me ?. I did everything for varun. After that, my father never spoke to me. He didn't even scold me but he just stood there silently without saying anything. That was the last day I saw my father. My thoughts break away by manju voice,

"Amma (mother). What appa (father) telling is correct. Don't scold anni." Manju told her mother.

"MANJU.. DON'T DARE TO S.."

Before his mother could finish the whole sentence, manju noticed my presence and told me with a smile

"Anni (sister in law) came and sat. Let's have breakfast.. Today mom has made upma."

I wiped away my tears before anyone could notice and smiled while looking at manju and went near to the dining table. Manju moved a chair beside her and gestured to me to sit in it.

When I was about to sit, I heard his mother's voice.

"YA PUSANIKA (Pumpkin).. DON'T DARE TO SIT IN OUR FAMILY DINING TABLE. IT'S ONLY FOR OUR FAMILY MEMBERS NOT FOR SOME UNWANTED CHARACTERLESS GIRL LIKE YOU. Here, take this plate and go and have your breakfast in the kitchen. DON'T DARE TO COME NEAR DINING TABLE. JUST GO AWAY. I HATE TO SEE YOUR FACE A.."

Before his mother could  complete the whole sentence, varun laughed out loudly and commented in a jovial tone,

"Mom.. Seriously ?. You called her pumpkin. haha.. haha.. Actually it suits her. She looks like an exact copy of pumpkin. We can call her kula pusanika (short pumpkin). Kula pusanika is a perfect nickname for her."

Hearing his words, his mother also started to laugh. Only his sister and father looked at Varun with disappointment.

After listening to his comment, I couldn't stand there. I felt difficult to breathe there. Therefore, I ran to the kitchen. I cried thinking of his words. Why is he doing  this ?. I have never asked him anything but at least he can't treat me respectfully in front of others !!. He even teases my height. I know I'm little short,  but still 5'2" is not that much short. Why are they insulting me using my physical appearance ?. Am I looking so ugly ?. Maybe that's why they are treating me like this. If I had been beautiful, he would have loved me.

Chapter 6

Rosie pov,

Suddenly someone touched my shoulder, I turned to look. It's manju. She wiped my tears and told me in soft tone,

"Don't cry anni( sister in law). Everything will be alright. Believe me. Now have your breakfast"

After saying it, she extended her hand to give me a breakfast plate. Before I could reply to her or get a plate from her hand, we heard his mother's voice from the dining hall.

"Manju.. Tell her to eat little. Maybe it will help her to lose weight. "

After telling it, Varun and his mother continued their laughing section. After hearing their laugh, a loud cry ripped right through my heart. I cried loudly. Manju hugged me and patted my back and told me repeatedly,

"Everything will be alright anni."

Manju released me from her hug after my cries dried down and told me in a soft tone,

"Here, have this food, anni ( sister in law)."

"No.. I will have it later. You're getting late for college. So, now you go and get ready to go college." I replied to her in an assuring tone.

She nodded with a sigh and went to her room.

After keeping food in the hotbox, I went to the back side of the kitchen and sat in square shaped stone. We don't understand the beauty of our parents' love when we are with them. We will understand the beauty of their love after leaving them. My mom would always tell me to eat more. For that I would always reply her with frown,

"Mom i am already looking fat, still you are telling me to eat more."

My mom caress my cheek lovingly and reply in a fake angry tone

"Rosie.. Stop saying you are fat. You are looking  healthy and beautiful." and then she would kiss my cheek lovingly.

Again fresh tears start to pour out from my eyes while remembering them. I miss them. I wish to see them again. I wish to sleep in my mom's lap again. I wish to hold my father's hand again. I wish to have a silly fight with my brother again. I wish to hear my mother scold again. I wish to eat my mother's prepared food again. I wish to go back home. My real home. But, I don't dare to do it. Always I have seen love and proudness in their eyes for me,  now I don't have strength to see disappointment and shame in their eyes. I broke their trust. My stupidity makes my family humiliated before everyone.

After wiping my tears, I decided to search for a job. Even a low pay job means okay. I can't eat their food freely. At Least I can give them money for food and rent. Now I don't have much money. After paying hostel fees for this month, I only have 20,000 in my bank account. From that money, I can give 10,000 rupees to Varun for rent and food for the next 2 months.

For that, first I have to know. Is there any bank located near this area ?. Let's ask manju about bank details. I have her number in my phone. Where is my phone ?. Yup, It's in his bedroom.

After deciding on it, I entered his home through the kitchen door to go to his room. On the way, I saw his mom. She told me to cook food for the afternoon. Oh god !!. How will I tell her that I don't know cooking ?.

Think rosie.. Think rosie.. Yup !!. First, somehow I have to go to the bank and withdraw money from there. After that, I can think about cooking. It's a good idea. First, to go to the bank, I have to get her permission to go outside. Therefore I asked her in low tone,

"Madam, can I go to the market ?. I need to buy something."

"Okay.. Go but have to come within one hour." She told me in an orderly tone.

"Okay madam." I replied and went to his room upstairs.

After entering his room, I searched for him but he was not in the room. Where is he ?.

"Maybe he went to the office. Even after the breakfast incident, you are still expecting him to inform you about his whereabouts. Don't forget that you are just a maid for him." My mind mocked me.

Yeah.. How can I forget it ?. Anyway, let's call manju.

"Okay.. Thank you for your help, manju Yeah.. I will manage." After talking with her on the phone, I cut the phone call.

Then, I took my purse from the bag and went to the bank and withdrew 10,000 rupees from my account. On the way back home, I saw a medical shop. When I saw the medical shop, I remembered his words,

"Don't forget to take a pill."

Anyway, I can't get pregnant. Then, what's the use of taking pills !!

"Sorry Mrs.Rosie Varun. You can't get pregnant again."

While remembering the doctor's words, tears slipped from my eye. I placed my hand on my stomach over the saree and looked up at the sky. I remembered all those memories which I buried deeply in my heart. Still it's hurting like a fresh wound. Sorry baby, I couldn't save you. Please forgive your stupid mother. After restraining my emotions, I reached his home.

After entering his home, I saw his mother sitting on the sofa and watching tv. Before she would notice me, I tried to go to his room but my bad luck. I heard her voice as I walked behind her slowly,

"Hey girl.. Wait.."

I stopped walking and turned and looked at her. Regardless of my look, she was staring at me from top to bottom with some kind of thoughts. I could not figure out what she was thinking. I stood in front of her hesitatingly. After few seconds, she asked me,

" What's your name ?."

Why is everyone asking my name ?. Yesterday her son asked and today she is asking.

"Rosie Madam." I replied to her.

"Okay rosie.. Go and cook something for lunch. For dinner, cook chapati with egg gravy. And one more thing you can call me aunty. Now go and do your work."

I nodded as if to reply to her and went to the kitchen to prepare the food.

Main problem is, I don't know how to cook.. What to do ?. Think rosie.. Think.. Wow !!.. I got a fantastic idea. I can cook with the help of youtube. Wohoo Rosie !!. Super idea.. You are great.. Let's cook..

After 2 hours, I prepared vegetable pulao with chicken gravy. After cleaning all the mess which I created while cooking. I planned to go to his room to take some rest due to tiredness.

Therefore, I started to clean the kitchen quickly. However, before I could finish it, his mother came and ordered me to clean the whole house. I feel like crying after hearing her next order. But, what to do !!. I can't do anything against her right !!. As per varun order. Therefore, I just agreed with her.

For the past 15 minutes, I was cleaning his house. Oh god!!.. I think I am going to die today. Morning itself her son tried to kill me. Because of him, I still feel soreness between my leg and my body. Now his mother is trying to kill me by giving all this work. Jesus, how I am going to live here for 6 months..

As I was lamenting to god, abruptly I heard a voice behind me. I was startled due to sudden voice  and turned to see who. It was his father who was standing in front of me and trying to control his laugh. Is he heard everything !!. I was embarrassed to face him. Therefore, I bowed my head and looked at the floor to hide my embarrassed face,

"Oh.. sss.. sir.. I was cleaning." I said with a bowed head.

"I can see it marumagala ( daughter in law)." He said in teasing tone and continued,

"By the way, you can call me mama (father in law). After cleaning this, go and take a rest. I will inform malar."

"Okay sir.. But, Varun sir told me to call you as sir." I replied him with hesitation

" Don't worry. I will talk to him about it. You should call me Mama( father in law). It's my order. Okay.. You also like my daughter." His father.. Oops !!.. I mean.. Mama told me with a smile.

"Okay mama." I replied back with a smile.

Chapter 7

Rosie pov,

After cleaning the whole house, I took a little rest in his room.

Evening his mom called me and told me to prepare evening snacks and dinner.

Therefore, I went downstairs to prepare it.

After preparing food, I arranged dishes on the dining table and went back to the kitchen to wash the vessels.

After a few minutes, as I was washing vessels, his mother came and informed me that everyone had their food  and also asked me to have my food.

After replying to her okay, I resumed my duty as a maid. Almost I wind up all the work in the kitchen.. Yet I have some more dishes to wash. I haven't eaten anything since last night. I feel so tired because of my constant fasting. My tummy is pleading with me to have food. Even I decided to skip dinner again while remembering their morning insult.

Few more minutes rosie. After that, you can sleep. I boosted myself up. The smile spread across my lips while remembering about sleep. I love to sleep.

I wrapped up all my work and left the kitchen. It was quite late at night. After switching off the hall light, I went to his room.

As I entered his room, I saw him working something in his laptop seriously. Therefore, I didn't disturbed him. I noted in my mind to give him money after freshening up. After taking my night wear from my bag, I went into the bathroom.

After changing into night wear, I washed my face in the wash basin and looked at my figure in the mirror. I'm imperfect in every way. My eyes are small, My eyebrows are thick, My nose is a little big. I have full lips with pink color, chubby cheek, short black neck, plumb and chubby body, big bosoms but varun would always say to me " It is perfectly made for his hand."

I blushed and shook my head to push away unwanted thoughts. Ugly fat body with full of flaws. In college days, I tried to lose weight. Therefore, I did several exercises and dieting but it didn't work out for me. As a result, I lost hope and stopped doing all those exercises and dieting. What's the use of thinking about it now !!. Let's go and sleep.

After exiting the bathroom, I saw Varun sitting in the bed and doing his work in the lap without noticing my presence.

I have to give him money. When will he complete his work !!. Should I wait until he finishes his work or should I call him now and give it !!. I'm already feeling sleepy. Hence, I decided to call him now and give him the money, then I can go to sleep without any worries.

"Va.."

As I began to call him, my mind reminded me,

"Oh..no.. Rosie, did you forget what he told you in the morning ?. Call him sir."

Yes... I totally forgot about it. Thank god, At the correct time you remind me. Otherwise again he would have start to shout.

"Sir." I called him.

He keeps doing his work without even moving his glance from the laptop regardless of my call.

Once again try rosie. Yes .. Let's try once again. I told myself and called him again,

"Sir."

This time he turned his stare from laptop to me and asked me "what" by raising his eyes.

"Sir.. Now I have only 10 thousand rupees. So now keep this money for the food and rent. As soon as I get the job, I will pay the rest of the money to stay here." I told him and extended my hand to give him money.

Without saying anything, he took it from my hand. After wishing him goodnight, I went to the other side of the bed to sleep.

After arranging my pillow and comforter, I laid on the bed with my back facing him.

"Let's sleep rosie." I told myself and got ready to sleep.

Few minutes later, I heard him calling me. I turned his side and looked at him with puzzle look and asked him,

" What ?."

Silently, I waited for his reply but he looked at me without even blinking his eyes. I was confused by his intense look. Is there anything on my face !!. With confusion, I tried to touch my face. But unexpectedly, he moved closely towards me and hugged me while keeping his face on my neck. He let out a long sigh and kissed my neck and snuggled in it. I felt a tickling sensation when his mustache touched my neck. So, I tried to move away from him but he held me tightly.

Is he planning to do it ?.. If he plans to do it, then surely I will die today. Still, I feel aches there because of his constant torture. Today I have to say him strictly to  don't touch me..

"Will he listen to you ?." My mind asked me sarcastically.

But to my suprise, I heard him snoring. Did he fall asleep like this ?. What happened to him !!.. Why didn't he tell  me anything today !!.. Even he received money from me silently without scolding me. I thought he would insult me. Anyway, let's try to move him.

Oh god !!.. Past 15 minutes, I was trying to move him from my body using different techniques. Still, no use, he is not ready to move even a little bit. After trying some more time, I also fell asleep.

Chapter 8

Rosie pov,

There is the famous line "The one thing that never changes is change."

Last 2 years, I have always believed that I would never see Varun again. But, everything has changed. I met him again and currently I'm living in his house. I always dreamed of living with Varun in his house. Now my dream has come true. Even if it's for 6 months, it's enough for me. I will  cherish this memories in my heart deeply. At some point in our life, something unexpected  will happen. That can make our life upside down, but if we trust in ourselves then we can move forward in our life with happiness. My thoughts were cut away by an aunty voice,

"Rosie.. We are going to a marriage function, so you don't need to prepare lunch and dinner for us." Aunty informed me with a smile and went to get ready for the marriage function.

Two months have passed since I came to Varun's house. Many things have changed. After that night, aunty didn't comment or insult me, she just told me to do household work. If I do something incorrectly, she would patiently teach me how to do it. As usual, I cook and do all the household work. Sometimes aunty would help me. Nowadays aunty talks with me casually. Sometimes she would gossip with me about her neighbors.

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About Varun, I only see him at night. In the morning he will go to the office and will return before 7 at night. Most of the day, he will have sex with me roughly and mark my body with his bite marks. Sometimes seeing his bite marks I blush like a fool. But, sometime I cry because I know that he doing it to punish me and show how much he hates me. He only talks with me while having sex. It is better to say that he will order than speak. His orders are "hug me tightly, kiss me back, look into my eyes, open your eyes, keep your legs around my waist, lay top on me". Sometime I feel like an bit*h. He was like a beast in the bed and I was his prey.

One night, I was taking a shower in the bathroom. Usually I won't bathe at night. That day while carrying water from outside, I slipped and fell down. Because of it, my dress became dirty. So after informing aunty, I came to his room to take a bath. After taking the dress from my bag, I entered the bathroom.

After removing my wet dress, I turn on the shower and stand below the shower. Fresh and cold water dropping on my body makes me feel relaxed and refreshed. All of sudden, I heard a knock on the bathroom door. I stopped shower and asked

"Who ?."

Then, I heard varun voice,

"Open door, I have to take soap."

I told him to wait and tied towel around me. After taking soap in my hand, I opened bathroom door. He caught my wrist and placed it around his neck. Because of it, soap slipped from my hand. Within a second, he removed my towel and carried me towards the shower keeping my both legs around his waist. I asked him in a shock tone,

"What are you doing sir ?."

He replied to me with a kiss on my lips fiercely and entered inside me without any foreplay. I jerked due to pain and the tear slipped from the corner of my eyes and mixed with water. He started to move roughly inside me. Many thoughts were running in my mind as I was enduring his torture. When he turned on the shower !!. Did he come naked inside the bathroom !!..

Out of the blue, I heard his husky voice.

"Gundu see down."

I looked down and saw the shameless thing we are doing in the bathroom. Due to his violent action, I bit my lower lip hard in pain and looked at him with tear filled eyes. Without minding my tears and pain, he moved lips towards my ear and whispered in hateful tone,

"See how I'm taking you, for this only you married me forcefully. Now I am doing it for you. Then, why are you crying ?.  You should feel happy. Do you think anyone will sleep with you after seeing your ugly face ?. No one.. I know.. That's why you married me forcefully. To get good fuck from me."

Hearing his words, I felt ashamed. My heart broke into uncountable pieces and scattered all around me.

"Please varun..  Stop it... Please.. Don't talk like this... I married you ...because I loved you...not for this.... I wish to live with you...as your... wife...that's why.. I married you.. not for this....'' I replied to him in between my sobs.

"Oh.. You want to live as my wife. Don't you know a good wife will fulfill her husband's needs ?."

After saying it, he carried me to his room and laid me down on his bed. Then, he hovered and entered inside me again and told me in soft tone,

"Sleep gundu."

I was confused how can I sleep like this. Therefore, I told him shyly.

"Sir, please remove it from my body."

"No.. I wish to sleep like this today. So, I don't want to hear any words from your mouth. If you speak a word,  I will fuck you till morning."

After that, I didn't reply to him. But, suddenly he left my body and  made me lie above him and told me with a warm smile

"Now sleep, gundu."

I nodded my head and fell asleep on his chest. Next day morning, again he had sex with me..

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After that night, I confirmed that he is a sex addict. If I tell anyone Varun is a beast in bed, no one will believe it, because for others, he is soft spoken and a good boy. Only I know his real face. One day I heard his conversation with his mother.

"Mom.. Is she having food correctly ?."

After hearing it, I smiled like a fool whole day, even his mom asked me,

"Why am I smiling ?."

"Nothing aunty" I replied and showed all my teeth widely to her.

Sometimes I feel like, now I'm living my life as a housewife like other married women. But, reality is different. After 4 months, I have to leave.

Anyway, today I have to go outside to search for a job. Already 2 months have passed, I have to pay for food and rent for the remaining months. But, the problem is aunty not allowing me to go outside. Many times, I asked her permission to go outside. Everytime she would deny it and told me to ask Varun about it. After that, I tried to talk with Varun many times. Everytime, he would avoid me by saying some silly excuses.

I know that he doesn't like me but at least he can try to listen to what I am going to say. After trying a lot of times, I left the idea to ask his permission.

After that, I was waiting for a perfect time to go outside without anyone noticing. But, my bad luck. Everyday aunty and mama will be at home.

I think today is the perfect day to go outside. Already aunty and mama went to a marriage function, manju went to her friend's house for group study, morning itself varun went to office. So, no problem. No one will know that I went out if I reach home before evening 5.

After getting ready, I hired an auto and went to the town which is near to Varun's house. Already I note down some construction company addresses using google.

After paying for the auto, I went inside one construction company with confidence.

Everyone gave me the same reply, "Now we are not hiring."

Already lunch time passed, still I don't get any job. What to do ?. No one is ready to hire me. After looking for a job even for a while, I decided to go home. As I was walking endlessly, I noticed a poster which was pasted on the wall. It's a job poster for a receptionist in some hotel. After noting down the hotel phone number, I called that number on my phone. A guy picked up the phone and exclaimed me  hotel address and asked me to attend interview today itself. So, I hired the auto and went to that address.

After getting down from the auto, I saw a hotel with a five storey building. It looks like a three star hotel. After entering it, I saw a guy who was standing near the front office.

I told him about the interview.

He told me to wait and went inside some room.

After some time, he came and told the owner to call me.

I went inside the owner's cabin and saw an old aged man who was sitting in the car. He just asked me some basic questions and told me to join next week. After thanking him happily, I started to go home.

I was so happy. Finally, I got a job. It's not a high paying job but still with this job, I can pay for food and rent. It's enough for me. Working timing also from morning 9 to evening 5. Today, I have to talk to Varun about it.

After reaching home, I prepared dinner for Varun, Manju and me. After arranging dishes on the dining table, I called varun and manju.

I knew Varun would not talk to me in the room. Therefore, I thought about telling him about my job during dinner time. I saw Varun and Manju coming from their room to have food.

While serving them, I told him about my job. For which, he asked me, "How do I get to know the vacancy in the company ?."

Maybe he would get angry if he came to know that, today I went out. I didn't want to take the risk, therefore I lied to him, I saw a post on social network.

He just nodded his head and asked " What type of job ?."

If I tell him , I got a receptionist job in a hotel. Then, surely he will mock me. Therefore, I lied to him again that it was a designer job in a construction company.

He nodded for my reply and he added,

"We can talk about it in our room."

I just nodded happily  with a bright smile. By hearing our conversation, Manju congratulated me for getting a job. While serving food for myself on the plate, I replied to her thank you and went to the kitchen to have my dinner.

After the incident on the first day at the dining table, till now I haven't tried to sit at their dining table or sofa. Sometimes mama (father-in-law) or manju will insist me to sit, but everytime I would deny it by telling some lie. I don't want to interfere with their family time. I always try to be in my limit, so atlast I don't get hurt.

Chapter 9

Rosie pov,

After Switching off the kitchen light, I went upstairs. Aunty and mama still have not reached home from the marriage function. On the way to his room, I saw Varun sitting on the sofa in the hall.

After changing into my night dress, I came out of the bathroom. When I came out of the bathroom, Varun was not in the room. Where is he ?.  Then, I heard his voice from the hall.

"No dear. I am always free for you. Yesterday also I messaged you, still you are talking like we have not talked for months. Yeah I know. After 4 months, the problem will be solved. Don't worry, I will be there for you."

Is he talking on the phone ?. Anyway, Who is that ?. Surely it's some girl. He messaged her yesterday means he is chatting with her daily. That's why he is always busy with his mobile.  What he meant by saying that after 4 months the problem will be solved ?. Is he talking about our divorce !!. Yes, correct. He is mentioning me as a problem.

Anyway, why I'm feeling pain in my heart. I wiped away my tears and said myself,

" I'm not going to cry for him anymore. Don't cry rosie. Cheer up.. Already you know that he hates you."

Maybe she is his girlfriend. They might be planning to get married after our divorce.

Now I understand everything. First day itself, his mother told that he got so many proposals. Maybe, this girl is from one of those proposals. Maybe their engagement is over. They are just waiting for our divorce, after that he will marry her.

Rosie, stop. Don't think about it.. Yes !!.. Why I'm thinking about him !!.. Varun, I hate you.

After wiping my tears, I lay down on my side of the bed. When I was slowly slipping into the slumber, I felt his hands sneaking into my waist and pulling me towards him. His bare torso is touching my back and he whispered in my ear,

"Gundu, you don't need to go to work. Already you're doing enough work in our home. So, it will be tough for you."

I didn't replied anything, just cried silently. Then, he turned me to his side and kissed my lips. Suddenly, he stopped and asked me

"Why are you crying ?."

I stayed silent without saying anything regardless of his words. Again he asked me in a soft tone,

"What happened ?. Did anyone tell you anything ?. Did my mother scold you ?."

How can he act like this !!. Just before he talked with his girlfriend, now he is trying to get intimate with me. I feel disgusted. I want to be intimate with my husband, not with someone's boyfriend or fiance.

"Please don't touch me, sir. I don't like it. After 4 months, we will be divorced. So, what we are doing now is not correct.." I told him between my sobs.

After hearing my reply, he sat up in the bed and holded my hair tightly in his hand and pulled me towards him.

"Ah.. leave my hair.. It's paining." I start to shout in the pain.

"SShh.. Be silent.. I don't want anyone to hear your voice from outside. Do you understand ?."

Before he could finish saying his words, I nodded hurriedly with tear filled eyes.

After saying it, he removed his hand from my hair. I took it as an opportunity and moved away from him.

Only thought now running in my mind is to RUN. Run from his room. Run from his house. Run from his life. Run from everything, my pain, my love, my insult and my insecurities. Therefore, I ran towards the door before  taking two steps he was quick enough to catch my wrist.

Twisting my wrist behind me, he made me turn around and pulled me closer to him and said in dangerous tone,

"Now you want to run away from me. Now you don't like my touch. WOW.. Actually , I'm impressed. Did you forget what you did to get me in your bed ?. Did you forget whenever I call you, you come to room like a bit*h to have sex with me ?. Now acting like an innocent. I already told you till divorce you're going to be my sex slave in a nice way. Still you don't get it in your mind right ?. Do you know for last 2 month why I  talked to you only when I'm having sex with you ?.. Because I only want your body for pleasure, I don't want any other conversation with you. For me, in the morning, you are the maid for this house and at night, you are my bitch. Do you know why I don't allow you to go outside from this house ?. Because, I don't want anyone to know, some bitch is saying in my house. Wait.. Wait... You have to give money for food and rent ?. How will you give it without going to work ?. I am sure after seeing your ugly face no one will give you a job but don't worry. I will give you a job. Just be my sex slave. Whenever I want you, you just need to fulfill my needs. That's it.. It's a good job, right ?. It's perfectly suited for you."

Chapter 10

Rosie pov,

His bitter words pierced right through my heart.  Reality slapped me hard against my face.  Pain was burning around my heart. It was unbearable. I felt numb. I loved him truly but what I got returned, only pain and insult. I don't want to be alive. I want to die. I want to leave this world. Please god take me and relieve this pain from me. I cried out loudly while keeping my hand in my chest.

"Ya bit*h, take off your dress and lie down, I don't have time for those nonsense."  His voice reached my ears.

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After wiping away my tears harshly, I removed my dress and lay down on bed as he told me. He came top of me and hold my chin and make me to look at him and told me sarcastically,

"Now you're behaving perfectly like a bit*h".

Hearing his words, I closed my eyes. Impact of his harsh and soul killing words, tears slipped out from the corner of my eyes. Regardless of my broken heart, he began to imprint his foreplay on my body using his hand. I bite my lips hard not to make any sound. I tightly held the bedsheet in my both hands and laid down like stone. I think he also noticed it, therefore he told me to open my eyes. I opened my eyes and looked at his eyes directly.

He stared at my eyes and penetrated inside me forcefully. It hurts me like hell. I bit my lower lip and tried to control my tears. The pain began to expand around my body. At the same time, he began to move violently and handled my body the way he wanted. As the times went on, it became more painful for me. I know that he is showing me how much he detest me. I lost the counting of rounds. After letting out all his frustration on my body, he left my body in the early morning and laid beside me.

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Even after he left my body, I started the ceiling blankly for a few minutes without having the strength to move. I despise myself for loving him. After tying the bedsheet around me, I slowly bend to get my dress from the floor.  I felt sharp pain shoot through my lower part of my stomach. I slowly limped to the bathroom while keeping one hand at the wall.  All this time, his stare fixed at me.

In the bathroom, I removed the bedsheet and took a bath in warm water. After the shower, when I was about to wear my dress, suddenly I felt something flowing on my thigh from my lower part. Even though I assumed what it was. Still I touched it to know what it is.. It's blood. By seeing blood, old memories flashed through my eyes about how I lost my unborn baby. I slid against the bathroom wall. I pressed my palm against my face as the sobs left through my mouth. I cried for my foolishness. I cried for my stupidity. I cried for my parents. I cried for my unborn baby. I cried until no tears left in my eye. When I felt the bleeding is stopped, I put on my dress after cleaning the blood from my body and walked out of the bathroom.

With the thought of sleeping on the floor, I slowly bent down to take my bag from the floor and kept it on the sofa. After taking a shawl and painkillers, I closed the slip of my bag. Again I kept the bag on the floor, I had the painkiller. After spreading my dupatta on the floor, I laid down on it. My whole body hurt when my back touched the hard floor. While controlling the pain, I tried to fall asleep. All of a sudden, I heard his voice

"Why are you sleeping there ?. Come and sleep on the bed."

I sat up on the floor with difficulties and turned and looked at his side and replied to him in a low voice,

"Sir. I think I fulfilled your needs. You are my customer. I don't have rights to sleep in your bed. Especially bit*h like me, only deserve floor. "

I didn't wait for this reply, again I lied down on the floor and fell asleep.

My sleep disturbed due to the door closing sound, I felt my whole body was paining like hell.  After twisting and turning for some time, I sat up on the floor. No !.  I was lying in bed. But, how I came here !!.

The pain banged through my leg when I tried to get out of bed. I felt my legs numb. After massaging my legs for a few minutes, I got up from bed slowly. After finishing my morning rituals, I went downstairs to do my work as a maid.

While preparing breakfast, I felt pain in my lower stomach. Due to the pain, tears flowed out from my eyes no stoppingly. I speedily wiped my tears when I saw aunty entering the kitchen. But, still aunty noticed my tears and asked me,

"What happened to Rosie ?. Why are you crying ?."

I replied her with forced smile,

"Nothing aunty. Just stomach pain".

She nodded and asked me in a worried tone,

"Is it because of your monthly cycle ?."

I just nodded yes in the way to reply to her. I lied to her because how can I tell her that her son is the reason for my stomach pain.

After knowing the reason for my stomach pain, aunty called out manju's name loudly.

Manju yelled back from her room.

"Coming."

After a while, manju came into the kitchen and looked at me with a smile and came near to us and asked her mom,

"What mom ?. Why did you call me ?."

"Rosie is not feeling well.  So take her to the varun room". Aunty told her in causal tone

"No aunty. It's okay, I can manage it". I told aunty in a convincing tone but she was not ready to listen to my words and strictly told me to take rest.

Chapter 11

Rosie pov,

Some people may deliberately change themselves but some people change because of their situation. The people who are changed because of the situation even if they try to go back to their old life, they can't. Because, the path they have traversed has already broken their heart into uncountable pieces. My thoughts were pushed away by manju's voice.l,

"Anni(sister in law)"

"What manju ?." I asked her in a low tone.

Currently we are going to varun room. I already told her countless times I can go alone but she is very adamant to not leave me alone.

"Anni, I asked you why you changed ?. I miss my old anni who gave me sweets to get to know about my brother. I miss my old anni who would talk with me with a cheeky smile. I miss my old anni whose eyes will shine whenever I talk about my brother. I miss you very much anni, Please talk to me like old days". Manju told me with tear-filled eyes.

My eyes also welled up with tears by seeing her tears. I wiped her tears and told her in dejected tone,

"Sorry manju, Please don't cry, I don't know how to explain to you, You have to understand everything has changed, You know how much your brother hates me. He only allowed me to stay here to get divorce. I am not your anni(sister-in-law). Now I understand everything clearly that I can't even match with varun. It's foolish of me to believe that one day I will be your anni(sister-in-law). It's my foolishness that I believed one day he will love me back. But, reality is different. After four months, I won't be here, that's why I didn't talk to you much. I don't want you to get hurt at last. Please try to understand manju."

After listening my words, she hugged me and rubbed my back to pacify me and told me in a soft tone,

" You are diamond anni(sister-in-law) but Varun didn't realize it. I hope he will realize your worth before losing you. And you will always be my sweet anni(sister-in-law)."

After subduing my tears, I just nodded with a forced smile. Yes, I am diamond. Unwanted diamond. Ugly diamond. Diamond which can't shine. Poor manju, she doesn't know that diamonds which don't shine, don't have value in the market. In varun eyes, I will always be a ugly diamond. Soon, he will replace my place with a beautiful and shining diamond.

After we went into the room, she made me lie down on the bed. I can't lie down on the floor in front of her. So, I silently lay down on the bed and closed my eyes. I heard varun voice who just came out from bathroom,

"What happened to her ?."

"Stomach pain. Therefore, mom told anni (sister-in-law) to take rest" Manju replied in a plain tone.

Their conversation slowly began to vanish from my ears when I drifted into sleep. When I was in deep sleep, I felt someone hand on my stomach and slowly massaging my stomach in circular motion. It felt good and relieved.

" Anni.. Anni.. Get up.."

As I was in a deep sleep, I heard a manju's voice near me. I opened my eyes and looked around the room with confusion. Then, everything banged on my mind. I sat up in the bed while looking at manju with a weak smile. Still I can feel pain in my stomach but it's much better now than before. Manju kept her hand on my shoulder and asked me in soft tone,

"How is your stomach pain anni ?"

"Little pain is there ". I replied to her with an assuring smile.

"Okay anni. Here, have this food. Already you missed your breakfast and lunch. It's not good for your health" She said and kept the food plate in my hand and sat near me.

"Really !!. Did I sleep until the evening ?. Why don't you wake me up for lunch ?." I asked her with an unbelievable expression.

She pinched my cheek lightly and told me in teasing tone,

" You look cute, anni. For your kind information, now it is 10 at night. I came to your bedroom to call you for breakfast but it's locked from inside. So, I knocked it a few times but you didn't open it. I was scared that something had happened to you. Therefore, I called mom. Then, mom told me that Varun is also taking rest with you in the room. Therefore, she told me to not disturb you."

"You mean today Varun didn't go to the office !!" I asked her in a surprised tone.

She nodded yes in the way to reply to me.

After checking around room with my eyes, I asked her in low tone,

"Then, where is he now ?."

"In hall." She also replied back to me in a low tone.

I nodded okay and started to have my food. After taking the empty plate from my hand, Manju left the room.

"Manju wait. Let me wash the plate". I called her out hurriedly.

"No anni, I will take care of it. Goodnight anni". She shouted from the hall.

I shaked my head with a smile. I slowly went to the bathroom to wash my hands.

"Is it still painful ?" I was startled due to his sudden voice.

"Yes". I replied to him in a low tone and entered the bathroom.

"Come. Let's go to the hospital" I heard his voice as I came out of the bathroom.

He came and kept his one hand on my shoulder and other hand on my forearm and told me in soft tone,

" Gundu, try to walk slowly."

Regardless of his words, I stood at same place without moving and asked him in weak tone,

"Sir, why are we going to the hospital ?."

"Gundu, Are you a fool ?. The one who was a fool once will always be a fool. This line perfectly made you. We are going to the hospital to get treatment for your stomach pain. Can't you even understand this single thing without questioning" he admonished with a disgustful look.